>>81620775
I feel you. I was just a young kid when I was given a great opportunity working my ass off in a decent trade but I still wanted to roll around at home jacking off and playing vidya.
So I cut it down and now I hate my free time. Nobody gives a fuck about me except when I'm a useful tool and the few things I want to do are out of reach for me right now even if I have the time.
I'd rather just be at work thinking about what I'm doing than stewing in history.