tl;dr: why are your women like this?

I’m 30 and I’m speaking to a 47 year old Indonesian divorcee on Interpals right now, 5/10 and has a normal-looking Telegram profile with pictures of her workplace friends and children. She wants me to come get a hotel room there and sneak out of her brother’s house to see me, she asks me every time we speak when I’m getting my plane ticket. No real conversation because she speaks shitty English and short responses, but she plainly answers all my questions about what she wants, she likes cuddling apparently and she grows so little hair that she doesn’t need to shave, doesn’t even have a bush. When I asked if she was okay with sex without a condom, she said that as long as I take responsibility for any children I put inside her, I can fuck her however I want and finish anywhere I want on her, she warned me that she was very fertile and that her womb was too small for an IUD device to fit inside it.

For some reason it’s hot as hell to me that I can just fly over there, have my way with her and put my young passion into a repressed older woman, my faps for the past few days have been so earth-shattering that I’m lightheaded after I’m done… is this feeling why simps pay for OnlyFans?