im going crazy keeping my desires inside but i dont have a boyfriend or even a crush i dont rly have any friends to tell me i look cool or cute the few times a month when i actually go out or post pictures or anything and so i just think am i disgusting i dunno nobody has ever been up front to me about these things and i dont want to appease the worst men on earth for a little self esteem but idk how much longer i have to wait i hate being alone i hate daydreaming and fantasizing i wanna to fall in love and hand over my mind body and soul

its hard not to be a woman hater sometimes i cant be a woman hater as a woman i have to stay supportive but some of u guys give the rest of us a bad name

but at the same time, i understand why it would seem easier or i get why people do it just because they can. as a woman all you really have to fall back on is your sexuality
but to me its so much more intimate than that so its hard not to seethe

seething because its wrong and because i wish that were me at the same time

i am in my prime and i have nobody to adore me

anyway, its all cool