Jerking off to hentai everyday and watching anime for over 20 years definitely didn't help my desire to attempt finding a woman. I'm a dysgenic manlet so it doesn't matter much anyway.

I'm 37 now, I still jerk off to doujins I jerked off to a decade ago. Even porn is worse now. I suspect a woman wouldn't have made me much happier. I just really hate existing and nothing helps me escape how much I hate it anymore, except maybe sleep, and that's harder when you hate your life and become mildly dizzy in bed as you contemplate how stupid and meaningless your entire life was, and how anyone who cares about you now will be gone, leaving you just an old man no one except the taxman even knows exists. Just fuck my life.