>>81614313
>please have hope my kind anon
ah sorry, you misinterpreted my post

i'm not saying i just wanna wither away and wait for Death to come
he will come yes, that is inevitable - but in the meantime i'm just gonna do whatever i want and whatever seems... fun
i personally dont have any wants nor desires but i know other people have them, and i'm going to give the people what they want

i bought a few skincare products, i've started jogging and lifting, i've started eating healthier and snacking on fruits/nuts
like, i don't WANT to do any of this but this is what the people desire so I'll just put on my custome and show them my performance :>

>meet a girl on a discord server (for sexting or whatever)
>we chat, it's going alright
>we do sexting/RP and tease each other a lot
>Have some casual talks in between but we're still mostly just getting off together
>Do some really, REALLY fucked up RP a few times
>She has crazy kinks and basically chats about everything, no matter how weird
>I don't shame her cause i wanna keep on chatting, and i follow her ideas even though they don't turn me on at all or are disgusting
>Keep doing that for a few weeks, every couple of days
>eventually we stop chatting, i lost interest with talking to her and she wasn't responding as much as she used to
Now like 2 months passed. I haven't unfriended her, i can see her active sometimes. I don't wanna chat with her again and i regret some shit i typed. I wonder if she looks at her friends list sometimes and sees me and thinks back to it.