Schizo rant incoming
You know when you get sleepy, and you start imagining random shit? Yeah, that just kind of happened to me, except I kinda forced it into a specific direction, kind of like jung's active imagination exercise.
I've been realizing I have a very dualistic personality, one side is very masculine, the other is very feminine. No middle ground. I noticed I was getting tired and decided to think about that and just let the thoughts come out.
I was in a black void, where I saw a woman. She was quite strange, pure white skin and she constantly kept changing her body shape (neck would get really long of nowhere, sometimes she'd get really tall or really short in a matter of seconds, that kind of stuff), and I asked her what she wanted.
>I want you to live.
I asked her what would happen if I accepted her.
>Then you'll become a woman.
I asked her what would happen if I rejected her.
>Then you'll suffer.
I asked her why.
>Because you never let yourself live.
She came close to my ear and whispered.
>Let loose.
Why is my subconscious trying to pinkpill me? How do I put my anima in her place?