i hate being a fucking ugly twinkhon. i don't want to look like this. my manly huge ugly jaw makes me want to shoot myself. i just want to be a woman. i hate how transitioning has turned me from a cute pretty boy to a fucking hideous ugly girl

i keep finding more stretch marks and i think i have a muffin top. i'm not even a year on estrogen and my BDD is about to turn into normal cis woman body dysmorphia. i'm so close to becoming anorexic again