>doing my grind
>think about how I will have to keep doing this for years upon years
>begin to feel despair
I don't know how to surpass myself in this instance. Whenever I've been working towards a goal for a reasonably long period, like 10 weeks or so, I begin to deel despair at the prospect of spending so much continuing to spend so much time.
Maybe because a part of me fears that no matter how much work I put in, I will never be the impressive person I dream of as my ideal self.