i don't think i have exactly been isolated, but i did not make or speak to friends for the last five years (aside from online) and only saw coworkers and family in person. i didn't realize until i got home from school this summer, but i have no idea how to interact anymore and i am terrified, panic-stricken thinking about going out and meeting people or getting a real job now that college is over. i have no idea what to do. it's been a month since i've been home and i haven't even applied anywhere half because i am too scared that i'll actually get a response and have to go in for an interview.
through my fieldwork for school i accidentally made "friends" with two people and now they both have my number and i am so scared that they'll want to talk to me forever. they are both so sweet but the idea of having two whole relationships to manage is horrifying. it takes me like an hour of cathected focus to figure out how to respond even to their text messages.