Are there any particular tricks to avoiding needing excessive amounts of media consumption to keep yourself from ending it all? If I don't spend most of my free time "completing" games or anime or books or whatever I can't even function. If you can even call it functioning, there's things I can't do that people half my age do without a second thought. I want to become the sort of person who can work all day, deal with all of his responsibilities without overthinking anything, and be perfectly happy with an episode of a show or something per day as his only reward. I feel like that's the only solution to breaking out of this eternal rut, to stop burying all the pain. I hate looking back at my browsing history on most nights and having no memory of what I was doing in the morning.