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Everything you said is definitely true, and a good way to go about it.
>If you let other people dictate how you perceive your life you are ceding control of your life to the whims and vagaries of others.
Very possibly the case for me and I've considered it, I'm sure to some extent it's my own mind viruses, yet I still have the issue, as thought it's a response ingrained in neural pathways, or I become too overwhelmed for my mind to enter the superior initial higher state of peace, and when I try to just forget about it I feel a residual pain and annoyance that's almost physical in my stomach and lower back, the kind of feeling that makes you sigh, but it doesn't really get relieved and I just want to then lay down and let the day pass by. Maybe I'm just dumb but I know I thrive in solitude, my mind performs best in an enviornment that almost has a backdrop of proffessionality, like a shared mutual respect for ones concentration or something. I think I'm an introverted type. Maybe it's a problem of me clinging to that early peace. I just feel bogged down by things like, say, vain chatter. I don't really direct my annoyance at anyone over it.
For now I'll just decide I'm dumb and try to use Nevertheless I will try to use your advice (just felt a need to further elaborate if it perhaps clarifies anything). Thanks.

From a sense of depression and a feeling of wanting to lash myself?