>>81582850
>tfw 25
>live in a rural southern town where theres really no women who share my interests
>dating apps only really exist kill my self esteem
>most girls arent really willing or serious about long distance over something like discord
i wouldnt say im done with attempting to date but i think im just kinda done going out of my way to find someone. even on the rare occasion that i find someone interested in me i have too much emotional baggage/anxiety from relationships i had through middle school and high school even though i know how dumb it is. i dont even care about being a virgin and i have no problem just jerking off when im horny. ive slowly come to terms with my need for "a girlfriend" actively harms my mental health and view of self worth, so ive learned to just have fun by myself in recent years through picking up hobbies and other things to occupy my time with, whether its art, cooking, or learning to fix my car.