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rudely awakened by my bladder. but it caused a very funny scene in my dream. won't go into it though. should be enough sleep for now. gotta get a smoothie in and the gym. sounds easy but it's not, but i won't miss the mark, so many good consequences from my fitness journey this year. not everything in my life is a radioactive disaster. mom sent me a picture of her and my dog, made me miss my dog so much, we sleep together, when he notices me lay down for a nap he rushes in and cuddles up. he spends more time in my bed than i do actually. not really fit for a vacation this year on account of my sleep, which is very disturbed, mostly from quitting weed but also my crazy lifestyle, seeking love and money over the internet, but might pick up a laptop so i can keep trading/blogging and spend some time out there. the air is so pure and some physical company would do me good, been alone for 2 months now, not sure i can handle 2 more.
think i'll play some more magic for now. intc earnings on my mind, want badly for it to go well but truthfully not anticipating it, still time yet before things are really swinging there, but i really don't actually know. google said they were spending a ton of money on capex, mostly on their data centers, maybe buying a ton of xeon chips, an upgrade is very overdue. still in love but in flux. heart is battling my mind. don't know what's gonna happen. trying to avoid the conflict but it's raging. just gotta get to the gym today though, stay on course. making some tea, thinking about cards now.

morning /smg/. up a little earlier than i'd like. guess i'll do card work while i wait for the market to open. also a bit worried. think i might have two internet crushes... i know... but i've been watching this twitter account, convinced it was my crush, but now i'm not so sure, but in the meantime i've grown really fond of them, they're so smart too... lot of the same issues i have with my crush though, and if they are two people, i think they're both friends, which makes this a love triangle of sorts. i'm having trouble reconciling things today. confusion and trouble with love has been constant however. and i might also be confused about my confusion. one thing is for sure, love seems out of reach for now. hoping for a warm greeting soon though, a return to romance in bant /smg/, where it all started.
prices are encouraging though, and that's what i'm going to focus on for now. clarity will come soon enough, and if i keep doing right, i'll attract what i want naturally without having to chase it down. still in this biotech trade and wanting that to work out, make me some extra cash. kind of feel i should just hold it for a long time, but leverage is tricky. it makes me so nervous to have it on, you're truly risking everything for the chance of a little extra, prices CAN change suddenly, circuit breakers are no real protection, no guarantee they will work even. probably spreading too much fear, probably should be using more of it, but that's the way i feel about it.
anyhow, still a while until prices move for real, and i did promise you all an exciting fresh mtg deck this week, i know some people play, others are thinking about it, and that's what i'm gonna work on for about an hour.