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maybe it's not even you and it's just my battered mind grasping at straws, but I've been chronically checking for any posts resembling you while also posting myself to lend you hints. I realize what you are doing is wholly intended as the best for both our security, yet knowing that still absolutely nothing has come close to quenching the void, and I'm unsure if anything except you could ever make life feel as colourful as in those brief moments we shared. If it really is you and still we are both sharing such despair... well, nothing could make me sadder, because it would truly mean that you are a real one and I lost you forever... How could anyone live with themselves holding that thought... I know some of those attempts I made to forget deeply hurt you, hence I have no right to ask anything, yet I am too awful not to. I truly meant what I said when I told you I'd always wait for you. Nothing changed. Things don't always have to be so complicated stinky.