trannies, detrannies, and reppers of /lgbt/: have you ever wished to be physically disabled (i.e. becoming an amputee, being wheelchair-bound, blindness/deafness etc.)?

if yes, when & why did these feelings start, and how have they manifested in your life? what about the concept do you find appealing? did the desire subside after transition?

post letters if you wish - i have suspicions