>>81691433
Whenever something nice happens--that rare time it happens--I get this tiny, insignificant spark of hope that maybe, just maybe, things might be alright in the end. But then something goes bad, even something small, and that spark of hope gets snuffed out and the black hole grows larger and hungrier. I don't know how to mentally keep myself alive, because I sure am not in my head; if someone would read or look in my mind they'd probably find a corpse.