>>40547551
I guess what I'm trying to say, is to reject the uncertainty altogether. If you are special, then you will know it through undeniable proof and results overtime. If you are not special and it was simply delusional thoughts and feelings, then nothing special will happen and that's all there was to it. But it shouldn't matter whether you are special or not, reject that premise from the very beginning and instead decide for yourself through your own actions regardless if you're actually special or not, who you're gonna be, who you wish to be, and who you will be, rather than letting fate or the lack thereof guide and decide for you instead.

But either way, if you're really curious in knowing the truth, well I think there's only one way to find out for sure, and that's to see it with your own two eyes, provided you're not hallucinating of course, haha hee hee