I can’t be a girl at all baka

>>40016450
4chan probably since 2011, /lgbt/ on and off since 2017. I'm a gigantic fucking retard and mostly just lurked tranny/trap threads on /b/ through my teens. Had no idea HRT was even a thing and just thought people were lucky (I mean thats kinda how it works but also if you get HRT before puberty it helps.) Coped as a femboy and got a self-hating nazi pre-T FTM bf who was misinformed about HRT causing bloodclots and fearmongered about it unintentionally. Talked to some twinkhon (at best) and asked her if I could ever pass, she told me to not transition because IWNBAW (she was clocky as fuck and like 6'5" with horrid proportions I dont know why I listened to that bitch.) Camwhored for random anons on /r9k/. Buy hormones anyways at 19 but don't take them because my rightoid friends at the time begged me not to. Troon out after 5 years of masculinization and end up a gigantic gigahon. It's over. Get on HRT ASAP or youll end up like me