what are the spiritual consequences of being unbearably intense and combative? i thrive in negative emotions and being extremely confrontational towards any persons character

people have described me as completely overwhelming and that its hard to be around me and that im draining emotionally; at the same time i dont TRY to be this way but its like if i really start letting loose on someone its always too much for them, but they are never too much for me and i thrive off of their confronation, meanwhile most people avoid it constantly

what are the spiritual implications of this? why am i like this? does this mean anything? is their something spiritual i can apply my character to?