ive somewhat calmed down now, at least to the point where the constant echoing of death doesnt ring on my eardrums as hard. I was hesitant on even continuing this, but wouldnt it be too lame to just do one day? anyone that wants to talk feel welcome to enter. we can pretend to be friends for one thread's time to fill each others voids temporarily. extreme short term fake bonding with anons is all im willing to allow myself going forward. to be honest even this is something i can hopefully vain out soon.