>>40312289
My resume:
>MtF
>Autism
>ADHD
>Depression/anxiety

My experience:
I have a mix of both physical and social, I think?

I'm not very dysphoric about my dick or my height (6'1"), but my body hair and facial features are a nightmare I can't wake up from. I will probably never see myself as anything but ugly, regardless of how often the people around me tell me I look good. Also, since I fully came out last month, I've been incredibly self-conscious about not taking enough steps to look more feminine (like I have to prove to everyone that I'm actually trying to be a woman and not just remaining the same and demanding people change how they refer to me). At least that's good motivation to work harder on voice training, start looking into new clothes, and enduring the pain of electrolysis every other week.

Specific day-to-day social stuff doesn't bother me that much; I just have a general ennui when referred to as a man that I didn't really feel until after I stopped repressing. It gets much more severe with regards to romance, though—I never felt like I was capable of it as a man. I can only see myself falling in love as a woman, if that makes sense (though I'm still probably going to live and die as a lonely ugly twinkhon because I've never liked any of the people that were into me). Getting on E made me want that romance a hell of a lot more, too; I've been fantasizing about the guy I'm into way too much recently and have had to try to tone it down because I know he'll never be into me.