It took me like 4 years to have a full-body orgasm and even then I can't do it consistently. Takes a while, longer than sex lasts and I have to be really into it.

Immediately after doing it for the first time I thought "I want to live."

>still think of myself internally as an ugly man
>persistent, uncomfortable amounts of male interest
Are more men than reported bi? Or are offline chasers real too? I have a penis so straight men can't like me.