Since I got laid off it's gotten so much worse. I'm constantly playing h-games and edging to them it's turned into insanity. If anyone would see me IRL like this, I would be deeply ashamed.
I tried quitting, just stopping with the gooning.
But I can't make it past a day because everywhere there are beautiful women or seductive activities that make me fall for it.

Some might say it's not that bad to bust a nut, but I'm at it at least 2-4 hours a day now.

And I turned into a complete degenerate by cumming into socks repeatedly, letting them dry and taking the next one on the floor, all crusty and smelly. The only thing that matters is quick access to a form that fits the activity.

Maybe I need to be locked up in an insane asylum.

Because this is very conflicting deep down inside. One one side, I fucking love it. On the other, I'm trying to overcome this addiction, daily. And it's not even just about the act of masturbating. I love the fantasies of porn and porn games.

How do I cope/heal?