I feel like my transition has failed. I cant get over not having a traditional cis girl childhood and im hopelessly ugly. How do i cope with failed transition? Urge to kill myself is high but id feel to guilty about it. Mostly i just want people to forget i exist so i can kms or find someway to bury myself in a fantasy and never leave.

I can post unsee if people want but even 9 months in my hrt progress doesn't matter. I don't make enough from my job to outpace my expenses and im a complete shoulderhon. transition is a rich womans game.