I fucking hate myself.
I hate how I have to keep myself locked up for everyone to tolerate me, I hate hearing speak their delusions while they shut me out, I hate how I have to just deal with everyone while everyone rejects me.
Why am I so worthless? Why can't you see me? Why the fuck do you act like a goddamn know-it-all and have the right to put me down? Why can't you tell me how to talk to you? Why can't you tell me what to do? How can I be good for anyone? I'm worthless and have no value, and I just wanna know why the fuck are you allowed to be crazy and talk down to me about my pain? What the fuck do I have to do to be worthy for anything? I keep on trying to follow the rules only to learn it's all bullshit and it means nothing! It pisses me off, I don't know what the fuck to do, I'm just so fucking frustrated and dumb