my grandmother is probably on her last legs and just got put in an assisted living facility.
I'm really scared of death so this is a really morbid reminder of the inevitability of everything
had a weird depressing dream about her being in the facility too. fuck man. I don't know if I'll be able to bear this shit when it happens to my parents. my parents are already almost 60 because they had me late.

I can't pay for my meds and I'm desperate. I don't know what else to do, I've applied for every single job I've found

31yo
Virgin
balding
living with my parents
low income
shut in and socially retarded
traumatized due to some shit
vidya and many other of the things that used to give me joy are becoming less and less efffective as time passes...

Everyday i wish to die in my sleep....