The greatest irony of all this and that I am living like one of my stupid and cringe old horror and guro stories I used to write. Who would have ever thought that someone who has always loved writing delirious and unhinge shit online is finally living a real life horror.

The worst of all this and that no one ever takes me serious and I cannot trust doctors, psychiatrist, psychologist or anyone or else they will give me evil medication and document me as unstable. I was lucky to have an untrackable record back when facilities were so obsolete and shit, but now the System tracks and documents your every move. I hate this world.

>>22849625

I know this word, haha. It is called 'night terrors.'

>>22849639

>it could be a seizure type thing

I have a history of this. I freak out so much. I feel like I want to tear my eyes out. You ever have the dream where you are peel a peice of skin and keep tearing it off and more blood and blood fills your face.

There is no one that can help me.

I wanna go out taking pictures again. It would be so cool to pass out while making pictures.