>>40409410
the truth is i wanted to hang out with a friend and not have sex that day. not even if i liked him. i didnt trust him enough to do it and now i never will. i always thought it was at least something you ask someone before doing it. no one just fucks without thinking, people always think unless theyre drugged or asleep. i hate that he excuses himself like that and that i believed him when he obviously has a functioning brain and just chooses to do whatever he wants with me. ive been trying for so long to stop defending him and now it turns out i was wrong and that he was innocently flirting with me? all the work i put into stopping being a pushover and a mat was for nothing.

i dont ever want to be near people again after what you guys have taught me, knowing people will just assume if i want to put genitals together or not and inmediately get to it grosses me out. i cant believe it.