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>Was your psych the one that mostly prescribes meds, I remember you wanting to look for a therapist independently of that but I forgot what came of it.
Yeah that's the one. I actually felt like she put in more of an effort lately, so I decided against looking for another shrink.
>It must be hard, feeling like you never truly connect with people
I dunno... I mean I get lonely sometimes but being around other people has never really changed that much.
>the fact that nobody around them had experiences in any way like their own
That's probably true-ish for me too, I dunno. With all the mental health stuff and the hospital stays and all that. It's certainly not something the average normie can relate to.
>a youtube channel of someone specializing in attachment related things (https://www.youtube.com/@heidipriebe1 discussed above)
Thanks for the link, might check that out later...
>a pleasant thing to share the things we know, isn't it?
I guess... I think I once was in a situation that catered to that well, but then it fell apart...
>I do remember as much, started from a discussion about motivation and rekindling love for doing things.
Yeah, I remember... My perspective on that has changed to some degree. I think my primary motivation for learning things & doing things was, until recently, a desire for prestige. I'm vain like that. But the older I'm getting, the more I realize that prestige doesn't mean squat. It doesn't lead to a better life. It actually makes it very easy for people to manipulate you. So I'm in an odd place right now. It does feel good not to be ridden by that stupid demon, but now I have to set a new course. Sitting in my room playing vidya (which I never really did before) and ignoring everything has been fun for the past few months, but I'm going to have to stop at some point. It's time to pick myself up by my bootstraps. But I need a goal first. Like, an abstract goal. Figuring that out will just take a little more time,