Gonna have to scramble the post order. I also should run a nice midnight bath later.
>>40091083
Was the last post I read when I went to bed that night, it made me smile.
>>40093716
You did nothing wrong, shinjinon <3 I deeply appreciate your care.. thank you.
>>40093742
Hope you had a pleasant time, and don't you worry, you can always start an entirely unrelated conversation and people will pick it up.
>>40094910
>The constant "what if I'm not good enough" of applying to design stuff eats at me a lot.
You lack "audacity" if you will. You definitely need to really push yourself out of your comfort zone there I suppose.
>then I see some of the skillsets they want, and mine doesn't feel adequate.
I have a nice thought for you that should be productive while exploiting a back door in your low self esteem: if you think yourself incapable of doing the job, how could you be possibly qualified to judge your capability? Best you can do is apply for things that seem way above your skill level and let the experts decide. Which is also the conclusion you arrived at it seems!
>There's just no jobs in it really, or certainly not at my experience level.
Is it the eternal paradox of people looking for new hires with X years of experience?
Agreed on avoiding defense engineering.
>I've always applied for low-bar-to-entry jobs.
Don't beat yourself up, self sabotage is normal and a constant part in everyone's life. You're young, you're capable. Nothing is lost.
>>40095111
I am glad you got away, Anon. Things are hard, but yes, this general (and I personally) has your back to the limited extent we can. You survived, and continue to, and I want to see you thrive. It will take time. I am excited to see it happen. I hope to keep this place alive for years to come. I'm proud of you. I hope you will be too, when you had time to process it all.