Being a trans man is the worst fates in life

>I will never be seen as a 'real' man
>I will always be a manlet
>I will always have this disgusting chest
>I will always have disgusting periods reminding me that my body will never be fully male
>my family will never accept me truly

I cant take this shit anymore. Why did God make me like this?? Why couldn't I have been born a man I hate this body so much I feel trapped. I will never be seen as a real man no matter how hard I try