OP here. The primary issue I see on a Meta level is the simple fact that me (random not the father dude) is in the developmental sphere of the kid. Not immediately ofc but again, if things worked out then it's inevitable. I haven't spoken to her lol, but idk

>>33355480
I've taken an external woman for granted in the past because she had a kid (she cheated on an objectively abusive junkie and had an accident, didn't abort it)
She was very kind to me but only recently I've explored my boundary on this and honestly I was a wreck then but now I'm more stable it changes the context.

I have always dreamed of having my own kid, ideally I'd love two so they wouldn't be as lonely as my only child ass was. Idk, sorry for the rant its a lot for me

>>96025552
I am redoing my entire narrative