Anons, how do you clear your minds and divert all negative thoughts / Emotional suffering from your inner self?

Right now, just being alive hurts me. It seems I only find peace in distractions because any kind of introspection, and the objective information it entails, causes me suffering. I feel this suffering is rational and deserved. What should I do?

I can't stop fantasizing about being someone else. Reincarnating as someone else. When I walk down the street and see other people, all I can imagine is how much I'd love to be those people and live a life different from my own.

Otherwise, I would like to lobotomize myself to lose the ability to feel these feelings of grief and sadness.