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Most of you don't remember the time where you just picked up an activity and did it for fun and for the joy you feel while doing it, forgetting time and the concept of an occupation.
It is a state you were in when you were a child, exploring the things as they come along, your mind was not infected by abstract concepts tied to your survival in the modern world.
The system loves to play with your primal fears to control you, it is by design to shoehorn you into behavior that was never meant for you.
This concept of preparing, caring about and improving as if it's a lifelong, endless job is holding you back. It all stems from deep rooted insecurity that you are not already capable to do it, so you limit yourself to predetermined paths, losing flexibility of perception.
Pick up some system where you have no idea about how it works and then rebuild it, explore its inner mechanics.
You stop thinking out of the box and constrain yourself to concepts you picked up online or during some job. Essentially you are blind, you don't see the forest for the trees.
The moment you care about a topic and the moment you start to perceive the dots connecting all the lines is when you can sit down for hours and days as if you are in a never ending flow state. Time will fly and at the fastest rate your perception will pick up on concepts naturally.
Go have some fun for once and stop caring so much.
Don't let the system du jour consume your soul.
Close your mind off from the concept of work and money, time and value, it is holding you back.
Take a vacation from clown world and do some ergotherapy, draw some boobs, clone some web app, I don't know, but enjoy yourself <3