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>the last time I bought one was to have a fresh copy of Zum Ewigen Frieden
Oh wow, Kant... Kant is hard... I read the Prolegomena a few years ago but I don't know if I could stomach 1000+ pages of that...
A fresh copy, that implies that you've reread that book a lot? What do you get out of it?
>statistically, most people are incompatible with most people
Yeah yeah, you gotta weed through the assholes and all that... but that causes me psychic damage so I stopped...
>we are currently having a perfectly fine conversation and even though you feel demotivated right now neither of us would run out of tism
You're nice, anon... But most people aren't like that, especially men, especially outside of /lgbt/ and IRL. On the internet, I can just close the tab when I feel like it. I am just hypersensitive. When someone is mean to me, when someone /looks/ at me the wrong way, I carry that around with me for... years, sometimes. Sometimes I also feel like I pick up on vibes that other people don't even notice, and I don't know if it's real or in my head.
Maybe it's like this for everyone, I wouldn't know. I don't really know how they do it then.
No, I've mostly given up on friendships. I'm doing pretty well on my own methinks... Why should I invite trouble into my life? I guess I am just risk-averse.

>Can you elaborate a bit?
I'm not sure. I've dabbled in so many things over the years, I feel like I've tried everything. There are... a handful of things that stuck. But none of them I could make a career out of, I don't think. And even if I could, that would just suck the joy out of it. I am just so tired of thinking about my life and my future... that's why I'm mostly focusing on my family right now. I'm in a fortunate position because I have time. I'm going to continue my studies through a distance program in October, just to have an alibi.