I've come to realize the game just isn't fun.
What I actually enjoyed was playing with friends. Playing public games is like playing public D&D (very fitting, given how both are WotC products). All it does is expose you to how people are genuinely just terrible at the game to the point they can be spoonfed every advantage and still flounder it, then instead of learning how to play better they'll just blame their opponents for playing an "OP deck".
>Yeah I curved out Rhystic study but you played Izzet and had a win condition that took 20 mana and 4 cards when you had no mana-positive effects, so I'm just going to direct everything at you the entire game even while I'm getting raped on board by Grave Pact and Burglar Rats being recurred twice a turn.
Yeah okay maybe I'll go play cEDH since it's allegedly the format people are trying to win-
>Kinnan player trying to act like a smol bean and wastes literally ten minutes trying to politic instead of passing priority because he overplayed his hand and got fucked
Even here, the general seems to be in a perpetual state of new/casual players that just don't understand basic abstraction of game concepts. I see people online asking for "spicy Breach lines" in their casual decks and the result is just a cEDH line that swaps Thoracle for Jace. No matter what I think is "fair/fun" there's always someone else who is new enough that doing an Underworld Breach loop is novel instead of played out. So much shit in this game gets defended with the most pisspoor excuses like "well you're just not appreciating the casual experience" as I see someone tutor for their infinite in bracket 2 and somehow it's okay because it "just" makes them infinite mana instead of winning the game so it's not "really" a combo.
It feels like games are more exercises in mental gymnastics than actually playing the game. It's a contest to see who can bitch out the other players while defending their own deck. I just don't find this fun.