>>40586697
It's because you are unenlightened to the greater reality. You think life is about going to work and putting shapes in holes for mr shekelberg.
You're actually in an endless cycle of reincarnation. Circumstances won't always be good, you can't hide forever. It's possible for you to be spawn camped.
When you suffer your soul gets stronger and things get better.

You are waking up. Keep going.