>>40289521
I've probably done it again today, but I'll go do some cardio later to compensate.
I'm on 1800kcal a day, but I'm working manual labour in a refrigerator day to day, so my passive burn rates are pretty high (probs 2500 a day, but I'm guessing). I've done 1,300kcal before (when I went from 103 kg to 82kg back in 2023 - I'm hovering around 73.5 kg atm), which I'd do again because I was dropping around 1kg a week, but yeah, just can't manage that at the moment while functioning day to day
It'd be more manageable if I weren't working my current job.
>feeling either really empty or randomly crying.
I lean heavily towards just numb, I've been crying or close to it a few times in the last week or two, but I think my body is still holding back.
I sort of expected to get mood swings, I'd just like to handle them better
>I used to do oral/sublingual E for a while and it made my E1 levels very high
Yeah, DIY, I'm in the UK, so unless I want to fork out for private healthcare access to HRT here is basically DIY only.
I actually don't know what E1, etc, levels all mean desu. I sort of just know what my E level should read on a blood test.
For me, injections are now at least a practicality thing anyway.
>>40285242
>But could it be that your body doesn't feel like that?
Some of this, but I think it's partially environmental (manual labour). I'm used to my body being on T still and recovering faster, and just generally feeling stronger, and E is making that body weaker, which is giving it's own cocktail of thoughts. My sleep the last few days has been bad (4 hours a night average going into 12-hour shifts), so it might just be that.
Very tired today, not really feeling much of anything, but it's my first day of shift, and I've not had any caffeine, really.
>>40289652
I think it's just that some old people (especially men) have a harder time clocking us.
I remember as a kid, it was 90% old people who would see me as a girl when I had long hair.