Every single thing ive ever done in my entire life has just been one long fucking disaster

Id end it all but knowing my luck id probably fuck that up in some horrific way

Im starting to understand why im 30+ living at home with no licence or gf and do absolutely fuck all with my time besides wagie for fuck all reason

Dont go out, dont go anywhere, no holidays, no gigs, friends are fucking useless , job is a joke, everything i own is fucked in someway and is just being kept on life support basically

I have the money sitting to vastly improve my life no end but i have 0 desire for any of it, thought getting a 30k claim would kick start me into "growing up" but no, its just a fucking number , everyone is still a cunt , everything is still shit

I could go buy the latest phone or some flashy car but then ill just be a miserable depressed cunt with a fancy phone, fuck all entertaining about that tbqh

tl:dr The end cant come soon enough