>>40211965
I can relate to that. I feel like I’m ready for it to happen.
>I dont’ know how much it affects you
I can’t say that I know either. I guess it does, but… In a more conflicting and complicated way than if my feelings towards them had been simpler.
It feels like a part of me will die with them. I don’t what I am anymore. But what I was was shaped by fear. The goals I had were aimed to please others because that was how I earned the right to my own comfort and safety. Pleasing others were my reason for being, so losing the people you fought to please… I need to figure out who I am without that. And that scares me.