1am blogpost

Tbh im kinda jealous of religious people. My parents were interfaith and not really believers so i was raised an athiest. But like ive seen a lot of religious people throughout my life and ive always kinda envied how they have these cultures and systems of logic and rules, optomistic stuff to believe in, words of affirmation, and no unanswered questions. I kinda wish i was like that but i just cant believe in a god. Ive tried picking up the torah multiple times and its just so ridiculous, i cant even get past the first two books. The only way ive found it interesting is by thinking about it anthropologically like
>yes it would make a lot of sense that hand washing and avoiding incest would be proclaimed in this text, those would kill a lot prehistoric desert tribes.
>No pork? Well yeah wild pork is riddled with parasites and they didnt have refrigerators.
>Circumcision? yeah i guess you dont really want to get dirt and cheese inside your wifes coochie after a week of ploughing fields and no bath