>>40010592
If you are in the US you can force them to give you the names and credentials of every single person accessing your record. The one to ask for that is their mandated HIPAA Compliance/Privacy Officer. This is normally a way to grab them by the nuts when they actually deny you but it is good to keep in mind.
>I also wanna get better at my hobbies, and
oh, which ones?
>get on top of my health and
besides weight, what's on your mind?
>lose some weight
compute your BMI and TDEE from the resources in the pastebin. I will walk you through the rest.
>It's just paralyzing, there are so many things I know I should change,
Analysis paralysis, yes. Buridan's ass is a nice mental image for it, a donkey starving because it can't choose between two hay bales of equal distance and size. You are never too old to start. Some people only get to live at 40. Some even later. We are preventing you from that fate today.
One trick for binary decision making is: flip a coin, declaring what outcome represents what choice in advance. Then look at the result. If you feel disappointed, do the opposite of what the coin says, if you can't tell how you feel or are happy with the result, or worse, unsure, consider the coin's decision law and commit.
>>40011294
A cute name, Tim. Take all the time you need, okay? I'm right here.
>>40014972
I don't, at least not consciously. Emotionally I am in a limbo. It is.. all very fresh, and while I sometimes cry, sometimes mourn, I would not manage to feel this way all the time. There is so much to do at the moment, I will need a while for everything to sink in. Thankfully I have my loved ones to lean on when it inevitably happens.
>>40016409
Thank you, Anon.. I'm doing my best to stay on top of things without straining myself. I think I am doing alright.