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>how do you do it?
Literally the only person I could call my "friend" is my mother as I can mostly talk to her about anything. I'm very lucky she doesn't hate me yet for pretty much loitering in her home, doing nothing productive besides community college work. I can tell she's getting agitated, however, since she will often get drunk and tell me to get a job (I've been trying!!!!).
>How do you become so unlikeable that not one person would consider you a friend?
I subconsciously started pushing my friends away through middle school and had zero friends by the time I hit junior year of high school. I never maintained any relationships with anyone so they just fell apart (cousins and outside family included). Basically, I always had the opportunity to make and keep friends but I could not be bothered.
>I think I'd kms
Some days it is very hard. There are so many multiplayer games I want to play but I have nobody to play them with. I do have a desire for friendship, yet, it always ends in countless amounts of ghosting and blocking. Just AvPD things, I suppose.