I drink around 15 standards per night and I can't stop. I'm 29, I don't want my 30s to be like my 20s and it's giga fucked. To be fair I haven't been taking my schizo meds so I hope this is just some reaction to me coping with something and when they kick in I can put down the bottle. I know why I drink and I know that doing the right thing (exercising, eating right, studying) is a much better cope than drinking but I need instant relief.