>>40684092
Had a dream recently where I met a pretty, nice girl, but she died right after I left her house, and I started sobbing, feeling that my life was a God's joke, how I was completely powerless over reality, thought of shooting my own head but then even if I died and went anywhere (heaven or hell) I'd still be under His rules, and I was left with a feeling that I can only describe as "spiritual claustrophobia". I can still feel it if I try to.