>another game lost because I fell to the ranks where people aren't smart enough to retreat after taking patron

The only time I played games while high was playing Battlefield. For once I stopped caring about winning or doing well and just walked around the edges of the map enjoying the scenery. It was bliss. Then it wore off and I was back to PTFO PTFO PTFO PTFO
I fucking hate my brain it's like just enough fucked up to be anal about everything but not enough to have anything officially wrong with me so that I have an excuse

what an awful day