>>33315480
i've been alone since i was born, and maybe even before that too. i know i'm supposed to restrain myself, and that any admission of loneliness would just push you away. i learned that i should hide it, but that doesn't make the loneliness go away. i wish i had my first kiss, i wish i held someone's hand. this feeling of loss makes my heart and mind tremble, and i hesitate to reach out, i don't want to push you away. you, who were never near me to begin with. i know my wish is selfish, that it offends you, that you should be my compensation, i'm ashamed of it too.

i just wish i knew you...