Basically, I feel like I need to kill myself.

Not like I want to, but feel the need to repay for everything. I feel like I've done so much bad and so little good.

I need some tips on how I can get out of this state of mind. It's not my first time and I'm scared that my brain will soon follow through with it.

What do I do? What can I do to help myself when I have this episode again in the future?

>TL;DR HOW DO I NOT FUCKING KILL MYSELF