I lost my job a week ago. I really cared about it.
I was crying uncontrollably off and on for about a day and a half. Last time I cried before this was when my grandpa died around 10 years ago. This feeling of not being able to do anything about it just won't go away even though I already fixed my resume and I'm looking for new jobs.

I'm moving forward because I'm not a bitch and no one is going to do anything about it if I don't but this feeling just keeps coming back. Over and over I have to blink away these tears that keep welling up and force myself to focus on something productive.

the only thing I know that helps is to work on something and it's getting easier, I just wish it would stop sooner.