June 17th 2025...

I hate how non-white subhumans can literally get away with rape and murder in historically white nations because of women and Jews working together to destroy everything good and holy. If a self respecting white man defends his life from a rabid nigger, spic, or other undesirable, he literally gets lambasted by the media and will never live a normal life ever again. Do you have any idea how fucking bad shit crazy that is? You are LITERALLY at the mercy of some low iq swarthoids because of women, Jews, and race traitors.

I yelled at my therapist yesterday. I told her I wanted to vent about people at work treating me like shit and she kept running defense for them. Eventually I cracked and yelled 'shut up' about four or five times before saying 'don't ever talk to me like that'. She was so taken aback she asked if I was talking to her. I said 'yes, God dammit' and ended the call. God, what the fuck is wrong with me.

I will marry this girl

>>33233998 (OP)
I have no idea how to socialize with people in a longterm kind of way and my avoidant approach makes me feel like shit. With groups I've been in for a while, we can joke and have a good time, but outside of the appointed hours, we have almost no contact. And with short-term "make new friends" events, I don't put too much weight into it because we may never see each other again. But for longterm outside hours, I am totally lost and either retreat into an activity like an autist or don't show up at all.
For example, a church I am relatively new to was hosting a sort of picnic event and was looking for volunteers. I figured this would be a good way to get to know people and pitch in. While helping out, I observed how everyone seemed to just know each other and have their groups. Whenever the other volunteers asked if I wanted a break, I would politely or jokingly decline and keep my distance from the crowd. I ended up doing background work for six hours straight until the event ended and my position was no longer needed, at which point, I just went straight back home. While I'd like to think I was helpful since we were short on people, I think it also created the impression with the few people I was working with that I'm a weirdo.

You can't tell your psychiatrist or therapist the truth, you just can't. You HAVE to lie to them about everything. You have to sorta work around your issues and say things like "So, if I were depressed what would the symptoms be like?" or "I feel sad for some reason and I don't know (when you totally know)" or a lot smarter ways that I can't think of right now that I probably have done in the past using intuition alone but yeah. You just have to lie. You can't say you're suicidal, that's fucking insane. You can't say you need medication because they will tell you that you're drug seeking or that the meds for your anxiety wouldn't work because you're too anxious. You're too anxious for anxiety meds is what they will say. You can't tell them you're paranoid because they will give you the worst fucking drugs on the market and you will feel like a fucking zombie that will make you want to kill yourself.

Honestly, just don't go. It's so much better if you just don't go. Don't tell anyone about your problems. Just say you're fine and bury them. If you tell anyone they will just tell you that you're young, everything will be alright, and then give you some ibuprofen to "calm you down." or they will say "Come on, you have to feel SOME happiness right? Like, your parents would be sad if you left? That means you care about something, right? See, you're fine! Just get outside and exercise."

>>33234133
If you say "The meds aren't working." They will just... up the dosage because that's how medication works. if it's not working just take more of it. Over and over and over again for fucking years. Start at 75mg and if 300mg isn't working then... keep taking it I guess. Just gotta keep trying the same thing over and over again for years and years. If not, there are 50 more you can try!

>>33234146
>>33234141
How the fuck is that not malpractice if not just straight up fucking torture and attempted murder? Like, fucking seriously. Ahmad, shiram (fucking arabs and indians I swear to fucking God should have been a sign) holly, the asian guy, winder, the other old asian guy. Fucking seriously they all need to be in prison for the next 10-20 years easily. Fuck them in their stupid fucking assholes. Those two bowen cunts as well. I went there for help and what did she do? She tried to fucking sell her daughter as a whore and then promote her friends band. Jesus fucking christ.

And I think "These people are going to let me be tatiana and I'll finally be happy." when all you mother fuckers do is torture me. Like, LITERALLY TORTURE. ACTUAL TORTURE. DO YOU ASSHOLES NOT FUCKING UNDERSTAND THIS YET.

>>33234133
I've participated in stuff like what you were doing at church my entire life. After a couple times of stuff like that, people will start to take notice of your hard work and will make efforts to include you in on things. Don't give up.

Also, don't forget to take breaks so you can at least rest and also get to talk (or listen in) to others too. The breaks are for socializing as much as they are for a change of pace from the labor.

>>33234146
I think you have the wrong guy. Not once did I mention meds.
>>33234179
>the breaks are for socializing
I know. And that's the problem. I have no idea how to socialize, so I just work work work and avoid getting myself into the situation.

>>33234146
They did that to my friend until her heart stopped.

>>33233998 (OP)
I hate how stupid everyone is here. It's tiring. Are you all just 12 or are you at a 80-90 IQ? Maybe it's a low EQ because everyone here is absolutely socially retarded and can't even get a gf or bf? Like that's hard. Pathetic.

>>33234049
She was not letting you vent. It was her mistake, not yours. Get a new therapist.

ya i just remember g-mode masterpiece JR Japan Model Train for nintendo switch it's why games are like that

I hate being horny. I fucked the boyfriend three times this morning and want more now it's afternoon. Every summer I turn into a dickhound and can't get enough. It's super distracting. Plus I wear out the boyfriend and he always leaves me by fall! FML. I'm normal the rest of the year. Why, summer? Why!?!?

It would make sense, since they're evil, they only see darkness. Maybe they're right though, maybe they know. Maybe Washington knows I am a killer. I don't mind helping them kill terrorists. I'll never like them though.

>>33234478
You're just a basic monkey... that's why. Not much else to you, you run on instinct.

>>33234335
>Visits a board populated by social retards on a Kazakhstani pet grooming forum full of societal rejects
>Disappointed to find exactly what you expected

I like Coffee Meets Bagel. Not because it has good matches, filters well, and is accessible. It calls women "bagels", which I find childishly hilarious. Like Brits calling each other muppets or something.

>>33233998 (OP)
I'm a young mid 20's guy and I recently found a job working IT support for a university. My last job drained me so much mentally that I feel much better now.
>Outsourced by a shady IT company (I was fresh out of college, so I was still dumb)
>Get assigned the position of an IT executive at an international logistics company
>My plan was to work and get absorbed via direct contract.
>The state of IT in the company when I joined was in fucking shambles.
>Inventories all messed up. 7 laptops missing, some not even registered. No cellphones registered with their SNs. Desktop screens also unregistered.
>4 years of e-waste accumulated, including 3 servers.
>Company was paying a phone bill for a service no one had used in over 3 years.
>Etc, etc.
>I'm in charge of 3 fucking countries, with a 100 users total.
>My supervisor is somewhere else in the world, and so is my boss. They had no eyes or hands here.
>I tell my supervisor of all these issues, and he plainly tells me that our boss knows how fucked up the office is, he just won't recognize it.
>Decide to show them what I can do.
>Fix everything as well as I can, even by scavenging old files and papers in shared folders and physical documents
>Show them to my boss, evidence in hand
>"Anon, you've worked here for 3 months and you just fixed the inventory?"
>Not even a thank you. Mocks me on top of that.
>Turns out my company had an exclusivity contract with my employer.
>Befriend HR lady. She knows my employer's scummy as fuck.
>January comes around. Looking for a new job.
>HR lady tells me they'll do everything they can to absorb me, aka, my salary would double.
>Regain hope, turn down job offers.
>April comes along. HR lady simply says that she has no news regarding my situation
>Quit my employer. Company later cuts contract with them after learning I left.
>Spent 2 months in limbo
>Find a job where I have lots of dead hours, and I earn the same

1y of wasted time. Not sure where to go from here on out.

>>33233998 (OP)
I've been feeling like horribly unmotivated garbage since noon Sunday. My wife got so preoccupied with getting our kids ready for summer camp that she completely neglected to do anything for or get the kids aware that Sunday was father's day. Everything I wanted to do got undermined, and I didn't get a single gift or even cards.
Made more insulting by the fact that I had already spent all of Saturday doing a lot of chores.
She's apologized and tried to ask me what I want her to do to make up for it, but now all of the kids are away and I'm just too mad and disappointed to think of anything. I was already dealing with a bunch of other frustrations and senses of loss regarding all of the hobbies I used to give a shit not mattering anymore and I'm falling into the situation where I have little left to define myself by outside of being a father, so the timing of this was as bad as it possibly could be.
I have no expectation or request for advice in regards to this though. I just don't have anywhere else to post this and I have no interest in starting a pity party either.

sega genesis for nintendo switch is a hallucination literally sega corporate still makes videogame video game consoles it all le sajd doesn't so actually those sentences don't even mean that and actually they would just make dream consoles en masse literally it just sajd doesn't because of dreamcast this means you are literally hallucinating the nintendo wii u is the most successful videogame video game console literally it all le sajd fail it's a leaders test it's most successful because of monopoly and yahtzee ok

>>33234636
Guys really do care about father's day?? Cute :>

what why all ze hate Playstation 28 wow so it's because of number reality they just made it all square one
you aren't a gay female so it isn't about you

>listening to literal propaganda

My eyes are rolling so hard I might cry mdma

what old slot am i doing for color reality? matsumoto, japan l.,.-1 before current era furthest into negative so atari Jax lol exists! yes you viewing something from longest time ago literally and even then longest time ago. wow so it just means that there is moments in time where we experience good days. yes you are viewing all before current era. ok i am in color reality. yes you are. thanks. yes.

>>33234484
No such thing as those.

I feel like I would have to become the words greatest conman to ever get a girl. Like seriously deceive and fraud my way into a relationship. Because why would anybody want to be with the real me?

I looked at a Peter Cushing interview the other day and felt very depressed knowing gentlemanly behavior has totally disappeared. It’s not just a problem of blacks and arabs ruining the country but just normal politeness doesn’t exist anymore in my country. People act very entitled and have no class whatsoever. The exterior world has become very loud and obnoxious.

>>33235043
"The Jedi are extinct, their fire has gone out of the universe. You, my friend, are all that's left of their religion.”

>>33235043
>gentlemanly behavior

I agree but you're on 4chan... there are no gentlemen here whatsoever. Quite the opposite - disgusting, piggish brutes with no class. Actually, the worst of the worst of society. The kind that rape and kill people.

>>33234737
As terrorists?

You're retarded; likely an inbred muslim as is extremely common with them. Proven inbred retarded degenerates.

>Didn't manage to keep my friends from school
>Now 25 and 0 friends IRL
It's over isn't it? I will forever have to cope with online friends.
The worst part is that this is all my fault, my friends wanted to go out with me still in 2020 but I didn't cuz I was scared of the meme virus and then I lost access to my facebook account.

it's over.

>>33234049
I like to play devils advocate myself to get some new perspectives. But as a therapist, she really shouldn't have been arguing against you while you were venting. Especially while you're emotionally tense. Don't blame yourself.

I lost my job a week ago. I really cared about it.
I was crying uncontrollably off and on for about a day and a half. Last time I cried before this was when my grandpa died around 10 years ago. This feeling of not being able to do anything about it just won't go away even though I already fixed my resume and I'm looking for new jobs.

I'm moving forward because I'm not a bitch and no one is going to do anything about it if I don't but this feeling just keeps coming back. Over and over I have to blink away these tears that keep welling up and force myself to focus on something productive.

the only thing I know that helps is to work on something and it's getting easier, I just wish it would stop sooner.

I'm really tired of them stalking my activity online. It's no wonder why she won't contact you two again. Sometimes I wonder who really was in the wrong.

Looking back, I don't think I was actually a super sexual person naturally. I think it all came from all porn that permeated the media I consumed. I was no eunuch by all means, but a large chunk of my twenties has been defined by an increasingly sexualised mind that's only now beginning to slow down. It's to the point now that just seeing a female girl in a game or show will immediately bring sexual imagery to mind, even as a horny teenager I wasn't quite as brazen with this response. Maybe it's just a virginity thing? I have plenty of self control at least, but it's just something to think about. I hope I return to how I was before someday, I don't think the boy back then would relate to the odd man I am today.

>>33234636
She got overwhelmed. You've gotta remember that the two of you don't have an eternal time together in this world while you're young and functional too. It's really, really difficult to drop something like this when it all comes in like dominos falling down. But let her make something up to you so that she feels like she had the chance, and so that you can at least get some kind of good thing. Remorse is good. Don't ever let it go on for too long without acknowledging that, even though you're aggravated right now. Go enjoy your wife while they're gone.

>>33233998 (OP)

June 17th, 2025

It’s been a while. Jag bör nog ta det på svenska.

En dag som denna passar bra att bege sig in i depressionen igen. Den omedelbara familje-kretsen är minimal, solen skiner och drömmarna väckte mig kallsvettandes. Glaset är påfyllt och jag har framgångsrikt tvingat ner mina emotionella begär i avgrunden en förlängd period. Min hjärna är snäppet vassare.

Min uppfattning av mig själv har varken försämrats eller förbättrats. Det finns inga fler karaktärsdrag som är mer eller mindre avgörande för vem jag är än förut. Enbart prestationerna har blivit fler. Men min uppfattning av dessa har varken heller förbättrats eller försämrats.

Ensamheten, likt fokusen, kommer och går. Vreden likaså.

Jag har planterat en chili. Nej, det är inte en metafor. Måste komma ihåg att vattna. Bevisa mig själv oförutsägbar. Mannen som inte kan behålla en växt levande existerar ej längre. (eller gör han?)

Hatar jag mig själv mer för dagen jag bestämde mig för att leva eller för dagen jag dessförinnan bestämde mig för att dö? Även, var det senare ett misslyckande jag bör vara stolt över?

Man kan påstå att alla misslyckanden bör införliva stolthet, då de alla bevisar att ett försök gjordes. Ah, bourboun, du kan vara optimistisk ibland. *sip*

im having TWO EXAMS in a few days and i'm quite scared because although i did some tuition throughout the last 2-3 years and i've been what we could call an "effortless student" getting high scores all the time with little to no studying. ironically, i anyway studied little to nothing for these 2 massive exams, even if studying was crucial in this case. i DO know the material pretty well, but with all this lack of practice.... it's hard to tell how well i'll do on the exam.. AHHHH I'M LOWKEY FREAKING OUT i'm afraid i won't catch up to revise in time

WHY DO YOU THINK ITS OKAY TO HAVE ALL THESE PEOPLE OVER HAVING THE AC ON ALL FUCKING DAY HAVING THE TVS ON ALL DAY. LIGHTS ON. EATING ALL THE FOOD. DRINKING ALL THE DRINK. AND YOU NOT EVEN CONTRIBUTE $ 1 FUCKING PENNY TO ANY BILLS/FOOD??
WHAT MAKES THIS OKAY!!?
WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE!??
??

Nothing brings me joy in life, I'm not particularly happy nor sad for that matter, my existence is uneventful and I don't even look for new experiences. I'm in a state of existential stasis where I'm bored out of my fucking mind but feel like it's not going to get any better than this anyway, I exist in lukewarm comfort.
That's it, just wanted to put this out there, completely useless information but I don't care

test.

>>33235743
Get the fuck back in /atoga/, shit for brains.

>>33235772
I was always here though.
I know you guys love me.
Cya.

Debating if I should just hang myself once and for all or just try going to the hospital to see what happens. If I'm going to die anyway it doesn't really matter if it's awful.

I posted a thread about this but I really wish I didn't think about the intern at therapy in a limerance sort of way. My brain won't turn off

Man I'm tired of always looking like some animal chewed me up and spit me back out. Its not even my weight thats a problem, I felt the same way about my body even when I was skinny, I just always hated the way I looked and it only gets worse with age. I always have skin conditions I need to treat, I feel like shit, I'm going to the doctors every couple of weeks, I keep taking all sorts of meds, creams and steroids and I just can't be fucked with it anymore. Life shouldn't have to be this much maintenance just to feel normal. The worst thing is that no matter what I tell the doctors, I always get prescribed the same shit that only works temporarily and then comes back, they don't know whats wrong, they don't know how to treat it. Then I take off days from work because I just feel like I can't manage my health and work at the same time but I took so many days off I feel like I'll lose my job soon. I can't afford to do that because its the best job I ever had and the only one around here that pays well enough for me to afford a living, if I lose that, I won't get another like it, not without qualifications which I don't have. My life is just a horrible mess and I want it to end so badly but I can't do anything about it myself. Why can't I just be normal? even my family gives me shit for being like this, how is that my fault I was born like that?

Why she keep looking at my bulbous Weiner

Why does almost every place I work have that one hot manager. Her curves drive me wild.

I work a pretty physically demanding job and about half of our staff consists of women. They always complain because they can't lift something, they almost never do the more physically demanding stuff, and when they do the other lighter stuff they still call men to come and help them. They always have the most complaints about wok, give out to the guys for not being there all the time to help, or they want everything done perfectly without doing it themselves. Its so fucking annoying, whats even more annoying is that they take up more hours because they get the easier jobs and aren't as tired as the rest of us. I'm sweaty as fuck after 2 hours of work and I'm ready to go home after 4, but they never break a sweat because they don't have to, if its tough they call the guys to come and help them so they have more energy for longer shifts, but all they do is talk non stop, to everyone and always claim the easiest spots at work so the rest of us have no choice but to do the shittier jobs. We get paid the same amount of money btw, so so much for the "equal pay" debate. Women shouldn't be allowed in warehouse type environments, not for their sake, but for everyone else's. They act so privileged, like its my fault they can't do the job. The amount of complaints I get that they can't lift something and no guy is helping them and how they're such shitty people for not helping. Meanwhile 1 guy can break his back lifting something 2 women can't. Thats modern day feminism for you, it only benefits women. All they do is fucking complain, thats all they're good at, thats what lets them keep the job. But try and say "no" to them and they'll write a complaint about you about harassment at work. Fucking ridiculous. They're the worst thing at work next to black people, because they actually do 0 work and just walk around like they own the place because they can pull the race card and you're done.

>>33235743
icles

parents divorce when I'm 5, live with abusive mother getting literally chased with a knife weekly until I'm 7 and the state workers or whatever they are notice an issue and move me with my dad. Get hit by a car in 3rd grade and get fucked up, I think that made me autistic. dad marries, gets divorced, fast forward to when I'm 17 he gets married again; the woman brings a child from a previous relationship (1 year old), my dad and her have another child, dad dies when the kid they had is literally a week old. I finish HS and help around the house, then join the military (US). Fast forward to when I'm 24, I get out of the military and go back home to work a normal job. "step mom" dies after 6 months or so, cause of death is chronic ethanolism..
So now I'm left with two elementary school boys to look after, do my best to do right for them, get 0 gratitude from them or help from any family. Now they're 12, 13, and I'm 29.
This life is so fucked up and I hate it, I would kill myself but I think they deserve a life in "normal/stable" home. I hate my fucking job, I hate my life, nothing works out for me, I can't get ahead at all in this life. I wonder what I've done to deserve this. in 6 years I'll probably sell everything I have and kill myself. My youth has been wasted with this and I'll never find a woman to love me or have children of my own.

>>33235445
Fight!

>>33236508
i'm about to fight (you)

>>33236159
A woman tried that on me at work once. I just told her I dont get paid extra for that.

asian emos don't even have to dye their hair.

>>33236539

I was best friends with this one guy, he always seemed to be envious of me, of how social I was despite being very introverted, of the things I knew how to do and things I knew. I would mention things I would do in college or just things I would do for hobbies and one day his brother who I was also friends with, told me that I have all these "cool" stories and such and that his brother feels inferior because of it and that I should act surprised at this one story he has to tell me. I did that but that was a once off, after that he seemed to have become resentful. He was much better looking than me but I knew how to talk to women so even in school he'd play the victim and leave group chats we were in because he wasn't the "popular" one, even if it was actually a chat his cousin was in so idk why he felt jealous over that. Later he got so bitter he started bringing up things I did that I wasn't too fond of and he started going on about all these girls he fucked and how he's so genetically blessed and all that. It just felt weird, like we were in this competition but he was the only one competing. He was just a shallow person who was too focused on superficial things and preferred to cut people off than improve himself. Eventually I just stopped talking to him because he started doing some shitty things. We lived together and suddenly I find out him and his sister were planning on throwing me out the house so his brother could move in. Nobody told me about it, I found out from a conversation our mutual friend had about it with me. Good thing because I actually looked for apartments then and didn't tell them to see if they had any plans of telling me. 2 weeks before his brother were to move in, I tell them I'm moving out and they say "oh good, because we were planning to tell you we need you out". 2 weeks. It took much longer than that to find a place. I cut off all ties with him because thats not something I'd call a close friend. I miss having a close friend tho.

>>33233998 (OP)
Why do you FUCKING RETARDS keep posting these without putting GIOYC or Get It Off Your Chest in the title????? I’m sick of having to scroll through this dogshit board just to find the thread

I let a girl know I had feelings for her and got rejected. This isn't a unique occurrence on this board, but it's still frustrating. All the logic in the world isn't making me feel any better over it.

>>33237320
I don't know why this happens. There's always so little feedback when attempting to date, it's what makes me the most miserable because I have no clue what went wrong.

After a long time on the dating scene, the best thing I can come up with is that sometimes you can do everything right, and it just so happened you caught the person at the wrong time. They have to be receptive to the idea before you even make an attempt and if they're not no matter what you do it won't be enough. It's like needing to wait for a full moon or something else for things to fall into place, except there's absolutely zero tells that give away when it's time.

That's why I think persistence is key when dating. It's easy to get a date, it's extremely hard to get a specific date. The chance that someone's open to dating at the same time you're looking to date is nearly 100%, but the window of opportunity for anyone specifically is very narrow. I think we're personally like that as well, we feel things strongly for a few weeks and want to reach out to anyone and everyone then go back to our normal, closed self for months before we open again.

That feel when invited on girls day to get manicures and pedicures but I hate Asian people and don't want them touching me
I'm just going to meet them for lunch after they are done

I know you follow me, to taunt me, to harass me. No matter how you judge me, no matter what you think I do wrong, you're the freak stalker. That makes you way worse of a person, than I am. I hate you so fucking much... always remember that when you stalk me.

>>33237489
Take your medicine and seek help

>>33233998 (OP)
We are going to break up. I've decided. For the past few months I tried to find a way that things could work out, but the reality is I don't find her attractive any more. She doesn't know it's coming. I'm the world to her. There isn't a good time to have a breakup.

>>33237534
I don't take any medicine and you're a loser asshole that doesn't know my situation. You should take your own advice as you're clearly a psychopath with sadistic tendencies. Fucking human trash, you are.

>>33237569
Women know. She is probably just using you and you overestimate your worth to her due to an inflated ego.

I want to get a group of hackers to help me located (and end) psychopaths..

I really enjoy slaughtering people in games, blowing off their heads. You sometimes have to become the hunter, to become like them to understand how to end them.

I do admit, I really do have a strong desire to hunt you and murder you.

>>33233998 (OP)
I've been working at my job for two years. Originally I took the job to be close to my gf (we broke up about 6 months into the relationship). My initial goal was to not crash and burn, and just hold my job then see how I could develop myself (it was my first job after uni). At work I am basically alone all day. Nobody directly works with me so I end up sitting at my desk the entire time and have resorted to just passing the time with a bunch of distractions instead of working. Occasionally, I'll have a 1-2 week period of hyperproductivity when a deadline is close, but then I just go back to doing nothing. I also can't relate to any of my coworkers and generally avoid socializing with them. I still haven't introduced myself to a few people after 2 years. I'm not even antisocial I just don't see the point. My friends and family all live several hours from me, and I'll see them some weekends but overall I am still isolated. After work I usually spend all my time at the computer (sometimes go gym) until late at night. I wake up late and show up to work 30mins-1hr late most days. Nobody cares or notices or both. I'm paid well but am not utilizing my skills, basically a dead end job. I've resorted to trying to save enough money to leave at some point to maybe move closer to friends or change careers. Also, my porn usage has gone way up since gf broke up with me whereas I had almost quit the habit when we were together. So yeah, overall just feel trapped and alone. Scared to make a big change. Some days I tell myself this will be the day but then I rationalize to myself to wait until I have $X or a job offer.

>>33237595
She knows something's up. We talked and I said I don't see us getting married. She still wanted to spend all weekend with me. She's planning trips for us after too. Hard to tell who is using whom.

>>33237489
I don’t give a single fuck about you anymore. I rarely even think about you. Fuck off.

The sooner the truth is finally told to me. The sooner bad things stop happening to you...

>>33237651
You're so fucking insane. Obviously it's not you then, you animal. kys you stupid rotten loser. I hope you die asap.

>>33237665
I will get to you first. That's the truth.

I won't be satisfied until you're eliminated.

>>33237489
Oh you poor soul how very WRONG you are about my reasons. Not even close

>>33237665
What do you think they're lying about?

>>33237672
Let the games continue!!

>>33237678
Correction: *KNOW (Not think)

>>33237674
No one stated anything about any 'reasons', you dumb mofo. It must be summer break, the children are all up late. Also, you've tried everything here, you little retarded psycho.

>>33237679
You're too dumb to exist. You know that we have your IP Address right? lmfao

Say bye bye! I'll be there soon.

>>33237681
Sure, that. What are they lying about?

>>33237688
Yeah I guess you're right. lol.
>>33237692
Good luck! I'm behind 7 proxies! LOL
>>33237695
They know. That's all that matters

>>33237710
>Good luck! I'm behind 7 proxies! LOL

You are so fucking stupid

>>33237710
Well they're not here announcing it or repenting, so tell on them

He attacked Kyiv right after I taunted him.

>>33237722
It's just an ugly fat troll. Don't give it more attention, it clearly is unloved by everyone.

>>33237728
I just wanna be nosey

That's disgusting, please get your mind out of the fucking gutter. You're too addicted to porn for being a kissless virgin. Also I don't think I'll ever see you as a woman or someone feminine, I'm sorry.

>>33237730
It's just making shit up for attention... you know like a child does for attention... they act up because no one wants to be around them due to their terrible personality.

>>33237734
Horsepussy

>>33237736
Is that what they call you?

>>33237737
Not as far as I know. It was more of a declaration

>>33237731
I posted in letter thread why gender transition is bad.

I agree with what you said and I feel bad for those who are choosing to indulge in that kind of thing and push it on others.

Porn is really bad. I'm happy you vocalize that because there's too much here that pushes it.

It's so important to focus on your partner and have everything with them and not pollute love with horrible stuff.

>>33237719
Yes but I am at least behind 7 proxies

>>33237722
I'm no snitch. No thanks

I’ve dated a few different girls since I became an adult and even though I’ve been an asshole to all of them, we at least follow each other on social networks, so I know they are happily married now. All but one of them.
Last thing I’ve heard about her was that she married someone, got pregnant and lost the baby. About half a year after, all her social network accounts disappeared, and she stopped contacting our mutual friends.
I know that I have no moral right to expect her to share anything. It’s just my selfish desire to know that despite everything, she found her own kind of happiness.

>>33233998 (OP)
Make a proper fucking thread that's easy to find or stop posting.

>Super fucking late on a programming assignment
>Spiralling, but nothing out of the ordinary, just the usual anxiety about failing and etc
>Friend posts a fucking suicide note
>Have to enter crisis mode upon crisis mode
>Now spiralling into "oh god and I have to do this too and also this and oh god I'm gonna fail my assignment and get kicked out and this person's gonna kill smthemseves and also"
>End up handing it in and somehow not failing

>Didn't even realize for over a year this made me hyper vigilant, neurotic, put a chip on my shoulder, and avoidant of programming in general
>Finally realize it and open up a bit
>"hey yeah so a friend posted a suicide note and it made me neurotic for a hot minute sorry"
>People think I'M FUCKIGN suicidal

Normies are so, so fucking dense holy shit fucking idiots what the fuck

>>33238051
>>Didn't even realize for over a year this made me hyper vigilant, neurotic, put a chip on my shoulder, and avoidant of programming in general
Weirdly relatable for something else that happened in my life, thanks for this bro

>>33237859
Post like these are why I have no social media. It is not any of my ex's business what I am doing with my life. If we don't talk anymore it's literally not for you to know. If I found out an wrote a post like this about me I would be creeped out

If people are meaner often when they"re anonymous this implies a lot of people are evil fearful pussies that just don't feel powerful enough to be evil, if you think about it. On the other hand it just might be easier for many to not see people online as humans, but this implies a lack of concentration and imagination at the very least. I wonder the the groups of humans that exist and what percentage each are. A lot of psychological experiments show there are good people, evil people, and varying personalities of neutral, some neutral people are followers and will do whatever authority suggests, there is even variation in levels of obedience to authority. I wonder how much of humanity most humans even like. I suspect it's like 20%.

>>33238064
sometimes shit is sneaky

If I pick up a call from someone with an Indian accent I become irrationally annoyed and rude with them.

>>33238051
>Normies are so, so fucking dense holy shit fucking idiots what the fuck
It's ok, recently I got called in very last minute for a three day job by someone who I haven't seen in years and despite the first two days where everything went well and my work was very much appreciated and welcome, on the last day I was told by the co-owner that they "didn't like my attitude" and that I should "pay attention because we might call someone else instead next time". On the second day I got car-sick and had a really hard time communicating how bad I was feeling due to how strong my nausea was, meanwhile they kept yapping throughout as if they were the ones feeling sick and needed calming down. When being reprimanded on the third day by the co-owner, they told me that there's no way I'm car-sick because this only happened once during those three days so I must be lying. I also apparently made some jokes they didn't like but that's on me.

>>33238074
I'm sorry you feel that way anon, but I disagree.
Even if we don't talk anymore, there is nothing wrong with caring about people you've been close with in the past. I understand being creeped out by obvious stalker behavior, but checking out publicly available info that your ex puts on their social network page is not stalking unless you were blacklisted or they changed their profile (neither of which happened in my case).
And there is especially nothing wrong about admitting on a mongolian horse milking forum that you wish happiness to a person you might have wronged in the past.

I think the chances I get the kind of girlfriend I want to marry are now unrealistic. I want to take the stoic approach and accept it's outside my control now and build resilience. Eventually I hope to get over this disappointment entirely and thrive but if I'm being honest, it is very disappointing especially considering I definitely could have succeeded, but I guess I didn't know what I was doing. Hindsight is 20/20, I guess.

Quitting my wagie office job and taking up a trade was the best thing I ever did and I encourage literally everybody to do the same thing. The notion that if you're smart you go to university/college and get a degree which lands you a job is literally University/College propaganda.

They're businesses whose income is students buying their products. You might as well be buying cartons of Coca Cola because there's a job offer printed on the inside of every 1000th lid.

Trades are so starved for even unskilled labour that I've seen people who I literally think had dementia almost make it to permanency. The pay is better. I didn't like my last employer so I cold-called the admin number of my current one and had a job within 2 weeks.

Trades are goated and nowhere near as hard as you'd think to pick up, even if you have zero experience on the tools.

>>33238299
What kind of trade are you doing Anon? I have an Electrician Assistant certificate and I am thinking of furthering that into a pro but I don't know where to start. All of the trade schools in my state are far as fuck from where I live, I only got the cert because the program was hosted in a facility 5 blocks away from my house.

>>33238306
In a word, electronics.

I install security systems/cameras/access control, which in my specific region only requires a 2-week course to be qualified for, though I've been working in the industry for 4 years now and can run rings around some of the older guys.

I don't know what country you live in, but is trade school *absolutely* your only option? You can't approach employers and get a trainee position which can progress to a qualification?

In Australia everybody seems to have this idea that you have to complete a 4 year apprenticeship to be any kind of tradesman, but as I mentioned you only really *need* a 2 week course for my industry. Plasterboarders, mechanics, comms technicians, and landscapers are just a handful of industries I can think of where you could probably just call a company and ask for a trial shift and you'd probably get one.

It's literally the boomer meme of
>just go in and give them a firm handshake

He hurt me so much and all I did was love and adore him. I kept telling myself that we are all flawed, we all make mistakes, it's fine. I forgave him every time, that's how relationships grow, right? We will grow even closer, RIGHT?
I can't even excuse his behavior, he's the nicest, kindest person I've met. That's the worst part, EVERYONE thinks of him as this nice, helpful guy. Why is he nice to everyone BUT me? It's not fair. I spent almost a year trying to make it work. At this point it's my fault, I let it go on for too long. It was my responsibility to cut him out of my life.

I blocked him, but I still need to hand over stuff that he left at my place. I feel like I should just throw it away so I don't have an excuse to see him.

I'll end up alone again. :^)

>>33238345
I live in the US. I dunno how much charisma I need to have to do something like that.

I'm really into this whole life thing, like I'm a person who can appreciate the lore the world building, the different people the different dynamics between people and groups, the different places, the mystery, I love the alien stuff the black government programs, the conspiracy, the current dating scene, the world economies, governments, the art, the entertainment, the religions even the scary and dark shit all that shit, this place is cool to me like I'm really a life enjoyer. The good and the bad...I get it man, i really do.

This is stupid.

I've been talking to a guy for 2 months online. He's really fun to talk to. I can be a real bitch to him (ironically at times) and he's a dickhead back. He said something that struck me as quite closed-minded about a common interest. I challenge him but then he calls me out and says I stand for nothing. He's kinda right and it's annoyed me because it felt uncalled for. I've been even more of a bitch to him lately. I think I need space to just cool down. We talk way too much.

I tried to make online friends because I was feeling really lonely. I wanted to learn to socialise and make friends because I'm such a quiet person. I don't know how to keep conversations going, so I try act a bit ditzy or be funny.

Anyways. I do appreciate our friendship to date. He's special to me... because he's someone I can call my friend. Someone I've spoken to on friendly terms for an extended amount of time. But, I wouldn't mind not talking to him any more. Mostly due to my cowardice as I've become more aware of my negative qualities.

I'm like a little kid afraid of everything. A loser with a job for losers. I'm jealous of the new recruits doing way better than me. Almost everyone has had positive feedback except for me. I'm just average I guess. I'm a spineless person working in a boutique call center (all I could get). Customers walk all over me and I sit there and take it, unlike my stellar colleagues.

Calls are long and I have to paint a clear picture of the issues. I feel like I never ask the right questions. I've asked for more training but the best I get is, "Oh, well everyone does it differently". I have a hard time understanding information even outside of work. When people talk to me I never seem to get it. I ask clarifying questions multiple times but I feel like I'm making people angrier because they don't feel heard. My thoughts seem to make sense, but when I talk it gets all jumbled. I thought call centers would help me improve but it hasn't.

I have no more patience for idiots. Now all I need to learn is to tell people to go fuck themselves to their faces.

>>33233998 (OP)
>Assrael
>Pissrael
>Shitrael
>Israehell

the ppl. of the internet have spoken, and I approve of it.

>>33238444
I am so angry. God. The worst part is that I would have never betrayed him like that. I would never even CONSIDER it. I thought he was playing by the same rules, I thought we trusted and loved each other. He didn't deserve any of my love and trust and care.

I work remote but occasionally I commute to the office, which is in another city 2 hours away.
when I get there I never actually do any work. instead I hang out with hot women from dating apps and sometimes bang them.
I am married with one kid.
anyone else in this situation?

>>33233998 (OP)
"Get It Off Your Chest"
"GIOYC"
Next time put this somewhere in the OP so that the thread can be easily found in the catalog, you cumslurping gigafaggot

I've asked her out on a another date 3 times at this point. And that's the last time I'm going to try with this woman. She just likes to blue ball me.

>>33238740
shes not that interested in you. if she were she'd rearrange her entire schedule just to be with you for 1 hour

>>33238694
>imma sociopath, anyone relate?

Just cast a freezer spell on my neighbor to make her stop bothering me

I only agreed to water my ex-girlfriend's flowers while she's away because I wanted to snoop in her apartment and maybe find out if she misses me.
>found the gift she told me she had thrown away
>also found four condoms missing from the unopened pack I left there

It hurts bros, I didn't realise going there would make me want her back so much.

I created a piece of art that was shown to a large group of people which ive never really done before on this scale. I'm kinda in a weird spot because alot of people gave me weird looks after as if i made something problematic(not that it was). Idk i just feel vulnerable to have my soul examined like that. Art has been an extremely private thing for me, so guess i have to get used to it not being mine once it's out there.

i miss you

>>33238613
got another one:

>IsNOTreal

their victim card has expired.

I hit you up and gave you a second chance. You ignored my message and never got back to me. I gave you a week to maybe change or make up your mind. If you were expecting me to send more messages then you're sadly mistaken. I couldn't be asked after the first and was reluctant to even give you a grace period for a response. You had me puzzled by trying to reconnect with me but you didn't want to take a step. Now you won't ever get to because the bridge is burnt. You can't say I didn't try. Such a shame you threw it all away on a whim for us to come to this. Despite all your issues and flaws, I was really hoping you would come through and we could go back to how we used to be. Perhaps it's better this way for the both of us. I'm sure you have your reasons but it's done for. I'd leave you with an apology and wish you the best. Unfortunately you'll never get that due to these rigid circumstances. I'll be perched on the castles peak looking for the sunrise past the cloudy mountains. Should you come around know the gate is shut and the walls are steep. Farewell, friend.

This is the plan, I whisper into gods ear...ahem get back into gym this week or the next, after a couple weeks get some good pics then tinder and other apps are calling my name!

Miles Davis made statements with his instrument. He would hire a band and strip everything back on his end and make a raw emotional statement.

When I was younger I would take in music by memorizing artists and band names and I thought I was cool for knowing obscure bands. Really someone just dumped a bunch of music on me and I piggy backed off of this. I made genuine emotional connections with that stuff though. I am introverted and would spend a lot of time listening to some of these albums so there was not a lack of connection with the actual music.

I taught myself that I did not like mainstream music and avoided anything that played on the radio or MTV, with the exception of some older music. I actually feel good about some of that stuff. It's harmonic and I experience spontaneous emotion. I repressed this because I did not want to be uncool or uncultured. I did not want to be a mainstream robot and so I naively bought in to an alternative underground program. Everything about me is a lie. It's a contrived attempt to escape unoriginality. My human nature is empty. I do not really care for anything. That is something that bothers me. That there is no primordial ether of originality to draw from. Everything is made up of something derivative from a combination of things. From this standpoint buying into a personality cult that makes you feel unique is more attractive.

What pop fridea tells you what brand of bad Monday you are? What nutriments did I eat that gave me club foot?

I thought, as I got older, that I should stop trying to play music. I did not know how to write my ideas down and my lyrical ideas were unoriginal. I don't know how to make the picture move. Something makes me hate musical movements. I don't like picking up the major key shift. It's repulsive in a way that I can't describe. When I finish a song I feel that part of me has died. Finishing a real song carries with it the sensation of intense self dislike. I hate songwriting.

>>33239621
The point of this post was initially to express that I grew out of my teenager viewpoint of needing to understand band names and song names. The listening experience is the most important part. If I knew the name of the song or the name of the person writing it, the song sounds different. If I write a song I have to pretend not to finish it so I can feel like it didn't mean anything or like I threw something away.

When I write an intentional song, I like those more, but I can't finish them because I do not like bridge parts I only like the chorus part. I do not want to write anything that contains filler.

I think that if I had better knowledge of music theory I could draw out the harmonic shifts differently. In my head there is something like a perfection ideal for a music piece.

So let me get this straight, my president, Donald Trump, spent hundreds of millions of taxpayer dollars on a parade—which coincidentally fell on his birthday too—during a time of a great economic recession where a majority of the population is struggling to make ends meet instead of I dunno, actually fixing the economy? What a fucking joke.

>Increasing desire to fix my bad habits.
>Make steady progress over a week or so.
>Mother corners me and rants for an hour about how life is worthless, how everyone is untrustworthy scum with no empathy, and reminds me yet again how much she hates my dad either first thing in the morning as I'm getting ready to leave for work or the moment I get home.
>Expects me to reaffirm her jaded, miserable beliefs.
>Rapidly descend into a miserable spiral and return to jerking off to uwu anime girls.
>Repeat.
Pretty sure she's the reason I'm the way I am. She's probably the least self-aware person I have ever known. But family, eh? 'tis the fate of vanguards, you and I.

how do i cut of a therapist?

>>33239798
Stop making appointments and paying their bills.

>>33239807
that seems rather rude

If a friendship or relationship didn’t work out, then I really don’t want them to know what I’m up to or vice versa. Out of sight, out of mind I guess. Keep it simple stupid.

Is the only way to ruin women's lives is to be Republican?
These fucking cunts have had it too good for too long and only Trump is doing something about it

>>33239818
Patient therapist relationships are inherently transactional. If you wish to cut the relationship then simply stop providing your side of the transaction.

>>33239798
>>33239818
send them an e-mail saying why you aren't coming back

Broke up with my GF cause she made fun of a dead family member who I was close with.
She told me that she'll just date someone better than me then.
She started dating someone way hotter than me and is her "type" after a month.
I am a mess. I thought she was the one and now I'm sad and crying all the time. what can I do?
I've been told by some mutual friends that she said she's basically won the breakup/glad we broke up.

I don't know If you have a family member like this but I mean the type who's always throwing shit at everything they can, never admitting mistakes that they have made even in front of your eyes, lying and lying and lying again and again and trying to put members of the family against others.

I have one person like that I put distance between my family and me because they are poison but holy shit that member it's absolutely the worst person I have ever met and I have been with gypsies, junkies and other social scum.

tldr; my family is shit and I'm so tired of them it's unreal, If I ever have children, they will never inherit the surnames that I have

even I'm ashamed of fucking blood goddamit

>>33240063
cut contact from her, any, even third party ones
dont hear about her, she may be as good as dead

>>33239345
oh shit

>>33239345
I couldn’t completely trust you after what happened the first and second time. Your actions made it very clear. You used me one too many times and hurt me. I would have wanted it to be you but after all those times, reconnecting with you made me realize going separate ways was best. That’s why I never answered you. Wish you the best, friend.

I look like shit from being tired and depressed all the time. It's not that I even have poor hygiene or any fat, my face has sunken in from constant dread of living. What is in bone will be carved onto flesh, or something like that.

>>33240179
Stfu. Your shit doesn't add up or make sense because this wasn't for you. Don't come into GIOYC piggy backing off my post.

>>33240357
Who was it for bro? An old friend? Relative? Partner?

>>33238929
I miss you too

Will you marry me?

>>33240597
No.

>>33233998 (OP)
hate my life and i am considering suicide
i am 28 and can't move out of the house because my job doesn't pay me enough to afford living by myself
it isn't a regular job, it's contractual work
i want to find another job but that is becoming increasingly difficult due to my lack of technical skills and living in a rather disconnected area
my father drives me crazy
he nitpicks everything about me and constantly degrades me by comparing to others
he's always talking about how i apparently bathe for an hour (i get out of shower within 10 minutes), how i take good care of my skin and hair, how i eat (i only eat whatever my mother makes me and make no specific requests or demands), how his friend's kid earns much more than me, etc
i dunno, i feel so lost and empty right now
i wish i had some idea where to start but i can't, even with countless hours of brainstorming and thinking
any advice would be greatly appreciated
i just want to get out of this house before i kill myself
i want to find a job that pays well enough to afford renting a cheap apartment and survive without seeing my father ever again

>>33240658
Good, you're not the person I was askin

>>33240668
Good, good.

>>33240662
just get out of there If you can afford something elsewhere, I'm in a similar situation, family is just a word, nothing more than that

if you kys do it in front of him btw

Fucking seriously today was a complete bust. Last night, nothing happened. I just woke up last night and in perfectly clarity it's like I walked into the room of someone that was so fucking annoyed I was there. "Jace, what the fuck are you doing here. Just, get the fuck out holy shit man. Just fucking go." and I was all "I don't know what's going on.' "Of course you don't you fucking retard. You caused me so much shit yesterday you know that right? Fucking go back to sleep."

So yeah, that was it. Nothing new. Nothing crazy, no mystery cats, no disappearing cats, no flashes, no crazy reflections or anything. Just a normal night. The time I woke up and NO ONE WAS THERE and I was like "Huh, guess no one is there then." and you guys reply quietly "Nope." and I go "Oh ok but there you are." and then nothing.

HONESTLY going to be really quiet in my head when this is over. Going to be weird to get use to that again. No more double knocking, no more voices, nothin. But I know you'll always be there, even if you say the strings are cut. Wouldn't it be crazy if they were still there but just... not fucking assholes? What if, and I'm just schizo boppin here, you stay but only when I want you to? I can't sit there and talk to the voices in my head all day. People will look at me and wonder "What the fuck is tatiana thinking about." and Birdy will know it's Jane or whoever the fuck is in there.

Maybe I just want to talk to her. I don't want them to go away, I'm afraid I'll be lonely. Maybe I won't be lonely because I'll have real people to talk to? I don't know. They have been there for so fucking long that I'm use to it now. I say this every other day but fuck it worries me every night. Even though the pozzlement makes it incredibly fucking difficult to focus. I end up fucking up A LOT because I'm talking to the voices rather than doing what I'm suppose to. There needs to be a time where I'm drawing or something and I can just ask random ass questions like I do.

>>33240869
and does anyone else experience this shit? They say "NO" but whatever. They know what's in my head, they've seen the pictures I draw.

BEWILDER: Can't focus worth shit when I have 3 voices, a puzzle, and a dying cat and family to talk to at the same time. Burnt my sammich today. Ruined my egg sammich that one time. They just never shut the fuck up when they should and they never talk when they should.

So if no one else experiences it, are you wondering how I can deal with it at all? I want Birdy to have this ability. I NEED SOMEONE ELSE TO DO THIS WITH ME. Someone real, not just some vague figures behind me of various groups or random people that say they are someone but I have no idea who they are. And then they tell me "Be careful who you're talking to in here." but they give me no ability to control it and holy shit this should drive anyone crazy but I'm fine. This is fine. Everything is fine.

>>33240881
Who the fuck is brushing my teeth at night, feeding me at night, crimping and styling my hair at night, doing my makeup, washing my face, scratching me, bruising me, hitting me, abuse me, jerking me off, all of it. Are they people are is it all just augmented? Who then is doing it? Do the CIA red shirts spend all day picking who is going to do up my hair at night? Am I awake when it's done? Do I get up and just DO IT MYSELF? Where do all the irons and curlers and straightners go when I wake up? What about all the makeup? WHERE DOES IT ALL GO? Am I a zombie when it happens or am I fully aware and flipping out the entire time and you just slap me in the back of the head and say "You'll forget all about this dumb dumb." and then drive me back to bed.

The truman show but real and... everyone is still just ok with that. The black project shit is realistic though, right? People just ASSUME this stuff is real because the government lies and hides things. They HAVE to have some crazy AI, robots, mind control shit, alien spececraft and the like. This stuff MAKES SENSE.

but the truman show? How is slavery ok? How could they keep up such a massive fucking lie? SOMEONE would have talked by now, right? There would be a million players and actors and screw members. It makes no sense. And then you're telling me "Oh, it's no big deal. Just a TV show."

But me being a crazy AI is real because I'm experiencing it? Still, FUCKING HOW? HOW IS ANY OF THIS REAL? WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?

How do all those musicians get to be in on this and they are just like... "lol, whatever. We got paid." They have no artistic merit, nothing of value, they just get to be famous and have all their music made for them. Claire being so proud of being a female producer and all of that and she doesn't do fucking shit.

What about Birdy? I want to ask her "How did you get sucked up into all this?" and you're going to tell me "She didn't. She's just like you. She just lived her life and then one day she won a singing competition and her life took off. She thinks everyone is real too. She's just like you dumbass. She has no idea you existed until her pozzlement and now she wants to meet the only other contestant in HER game. The Wakkawa And Birdy Show."

Hope you guys feel better

>>33233998 (OP)
I have been struggling lately between if the feelings I have with a childhood friend who I reconnected with last month are infatuation or genuine love? My flesh and mind war with each other because of it, the flesh screams "fuck her like a filthy whore and get her pregnant!" While the mind says "I care about her, love spending time with her and the things we talk about, or just simply enjoy each others silence!"

>Talking with some friends of mine, a guy and two girls
>Guy friend starts telling me to ask out one of the girls, she really likes me, just waiting for you to ask, etc
>Blow it off at the time

>Me and her are alone next week talking
>Do bring up a question of a date
>Get a generic excuse about her being busy
>Find out later she already had a boyfriend
>Friend knew about it
>Backpedals and apologizes to me for "insinuating" it, he doesn't even remember doing it
>Then says he didn't think I'd actually do it
>Everything is awkward now

The more I think about everything that happened the madder I get at him, even though I know I'm really to blame for even believing him.

>>33241073
>The more I think about everything that happened the madder I get at him
GRRRR YOUR PROBLEMS ARE SO FUCKING REAL

HOPEFULLY IN THE NEXT MILLION YEARS I'LL UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN BETTER

My dad's in a nursing home rehab and he can't go home without 24/7 care cuz of his bad hips, bad eyes, failing kidneys and possible dementia. He's been too stubborn about not going to doctors for too long and now it's caught up.

Missed the past month and a half of work visiting him and figuring out his benefits and finances. Praying that Medicaid goes thru soon and he can get in-home care or placement in a decent nursing home. I live in the Midwest and he lives on the east coast. I love him but I can't be his caretaker and I feel a shit load of guilt over it. He's in his 80's and I'm 30. Maybe that's old but that feels too young to have to worry about parents falling apart. Mom's dead, brother's dead, now this shit.

Everyone I've mentioned this to says I'm doing a good job and a nursing home is the right call but I still feel like a cunt. I get very angry at times about how things turned out. I'm so anxious all the time. Every time someone talks to me and family comes up, I don't know what to say because what the fuck can I say that isn't depressing or a lie? Fuck me.

>>33239345
I wish I had gotten a message.

I'm gonna get hair transplants and try online dating. Worth a shot. Sucks I'll have to save money for a lot more months considering I thought I was almost ready to start going out again but it'll give me more time to work on myself and I'll be way more awesome.

How to balance the mirage and the mirror? The dream and the dreamer? Where am I and Me? Where are you and her? Sake for the sake of sake means what, exactly? Who, exactly, do you think you see?
I’ve always had trouble with authority. I figured it was authority figures, but even the idea of nourishment for the sake of sakes is hard to overcome. So what’s next? What’s left and right? Up through down?
I am entitled to this space, this place. Setting boundaries is that. I hate the grifters who think expounding on concepts and precepts creates depth. I need to keep climbing.

I'm worried my unintentional negativity towards things is alienating me from my friends. And I've apologized for it on multiple occassions... but I've never really had anyone say "Hey, it's fine, we get how you work". Best I've gotten is "Nah, it's fine, we just disagree" which I get that, that's a really nice thing, but...

It's not an isolated incident, and I'm not apologizing for "not liking bugsnax 2" or whatever, I'm apologizing because I feel like I spout off a bunch of negative bullshit before I know it and kill convos. And I don't want to do that. Even things I legitimately hate, I want my friends to enjoy things. I even *feel* negative about things I like, because I will talk about fears with a new game I want to try, or highlight issues or rough edges from things I enjoy. And I don't even necessarily mind, and often enjoy those things.

I just feel everything I say is slanted to be pessimistic compared to everyone else in our little group, and I... don't want to hurt anyones enjoyment.

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life...

I'm afraid to try. I'm afraid to do anything, and I'm afraid to disappoint you. I don't want to start something and have everyone realize how much of an idiot I am.
It's too painful to even find the words to type this out....what a boring fucking problem to have man, I'm sick of this.

PLEASE MOVE YOU STUPID FUCKING BODY
PLEASE WORK YOU STUPID FUCKING BRAIN

I really hate this stalking faggot

>>33241336
Tell him stop stalking you

>>33241341
He will feign ignorance. He's the type to play mind games for his own self indulgence.

>>33241310
OOOOH SEE THAT GIRL, WATCH THAT SCENE, DIGGING THE DANCING QUEEN

I'm going to cut again probably. If that's what it takes.

>>33240357
it was about us so stfu

Things will get worse and worse each day that passes us and I'm not told the truth.

>>33241361
Don't cut. Literally just like study a language on Duolingo or pushups or instrument scales or chess or practicing drawing or...
Punish yourself productively at least.

>>33241394
What "truth" ?

i just robbed a fat bitch

>>33234532
Are they Jewish women? I don't get it

>>33241410
They know very well. So it's not anyone's concern.

>want to go to the store
>don't want to see (her)
It sucks because I used to go there all the time. Ruined.

>>33241353
Maybe you are just so pissed off at him you're being paranoid over nothing and think he's stalking you. People have got other things to do than watch you.

>>33241394
Here's the truth. You are very terrible at communication and rely on hearsay instead of trusting the people you care about.

I can't deal with people and I don't want to take medicine.
I can't make money I can't make friends.
I cry every time someone is kind to me and try to pretend I want to hurt them.
I wish I was dead. I wish I wanted to help people.
I wish this was over. I don't want to be free anymore and I just want to be powerful. I want to live forever in my own world and I dont think this world is even real anymore. I think I'm trapped in a room somewhere with a bag over my head and this is all a dream.

>>33241566
What are you blubbering about!!??
I'm the best at communicating in fact it's them who shut me down/off! And when we finally communicate they lie to my face!(I have proof of the lies).
So kindly go fuck off because this
G.I.O.Y. C obviously wasn't for you.

My person knows what time it is.

>get called normie on my local TCG store
>get called nerd and hints of autismo during parties
where tf should I go then?

>>33241606
Some degree of ignorance in public is going to have to be tolerated. The goal is not to be friends with everyone but to find the individuals worth spending your personal time with.

>>33241606
You need multiple people for different aspects of yourself. You don't always have to mix tribes, in fact, often it is best you do not.

On the 9th my fiance broke up with me without warning for no reason other than "worried and want to be alone," on 14th I tried to hang myself, I have been avoiding work or leaving bed, and almost everyday I binge drink to sleep. I'd say it's going just fucking dandy. So all I have to get off my chest is that if there is a god he is a sick fuck.

Womp

I just want to stay home and read books all day but I gaslit myself that being a man of action is more respectable and the only worthy way of living and now I've really put myself in a situation I dont think I'll be able to get out of

>>33241668
Been there and progressed to a point that now I can do both

>>33241677
What did you do

My biggest flaw is my wrath. I am very vengeful and have the capacity for pettiness. I hold grudges for decades, little things that I will exact against them. I enjoy spreading misery to people who remind me of people who wronged me.

>>33241746
entitlement has reached heights not thought possible ever before

>>33241754
Yes, it is why I absolutely despise others who are self entitled. Why I felt so much despair when I questioned my own morality. I cover my dark heart with light. I understand it now, which means that underneath the dark heart, I can choose where I want to go. I can do actual good, not pretending to be good, and finally find solace for myself.

kind of got groomed idk. this guy has gotten me to do things ive never done before. pictures escalated to getting on camera. i was getting high almost everyday during the height of doing sexual things on camera. i would get high to make myself less awkward. now we call normally with fewer sexual calls.
but the reason im writing this is that now, in my own free time, i set up my camera while im doing literally anything. i feel like its because it helps me feel better. being on camera, feeling humilated etc has made looking at myself easier and i feel less self conscious but now any time we call i turn on my camera even if he doesnt ask. i dont know why. its not like im obsessed with the way i look. i guess i just like knowing that when im on camera with him, he sees me. and when we dont call i miss that feeling?

>>33241772
self awareness is the first step to make any change, so thats something

>>33241805
Couldn’t have done it without you.

>>33241819
same

>>33241746
>>33241826
>>33241819
So youre both disgusting individuals

>>33241418
I hope you get caught

>>33241838
everyone is

Has anyone met a girl with a tattoo that you can confirm with reasonable certainty is mentally healthy?

>>33241691
Worked my ass off for a couple years sun up to sun down.

Stop worrying about my tattoos mf you’re literally almost 25 and still a virgin

You want to talk about who the real red flag is, be my guest…..

>>33241942
Im older and not a virgin. Who even are.you

You’re also on this gay site too so don’t act like you’re any more “mentally healthy” than a lady with some tats. Grow the fuck up lol

>>33241947
>I’m older

Then why are you asking questions some Andrew Tate brained 13 year old would ask? Like deadass, are you retarded? No one is mentally healthy in the year of 2025

>>33241954
>projecting self hatred via website usage
>acting like random people know who tf you are
Yea...im thinking deeply mentally ill.

>>33233998 (OP)
>two weeks into my teaching side job
>teaching a 22 yo girl
>asks me if I'm married, divorced or have kids
I wasn't even trying
I don't know why you guys have so many problems
>you're a chad
nah, I'm barely above average, 6,5/10 at best

>>33241838
I wouldn’t say that. I keep my wrath inside. I only recently started to externalize it and I do it in healthy ways that don’t hurt anyone. Plus I am growing and changing.

today i thought about killing myself while i was having a panic attack in a walmart parking lot i was thinking about my ex and how he stayed with me for 3 years when he didnt love me yesterday i found out early into our relationship he was thinking of leaving me because im alot to handle and yeah its true but i deserve love too it really hurts and i cant help dwell on the fact he thought about leaving me so early on id rather him break up with me a couple of years ago not while im at my worst and i need support the most

>>33242216
Sounds traumatizing but you can more easily recognize the signs now. Just try not to overread for signs or over seek reassurance next time.

>>33241922
I've never found a mentally healthy person

>>33242222
if im being honest it was a perfect relationship up until he broke up with me and i was completely shocked and overcompensated trying to win him back all i did was make myself into a fool

Kinda funny on how all it took was one friend to just fuck up by doing the one thing we said never to do and a conversation with the others to pretty much convince everyone that we should pro start our own things now. It's not a dramatic friend group split that people are used too but it was definitely something I was expecting after witnessing a nasty argument that lead to someone else leaving. Was it fucked up that I was already preparing a different friend group to keep tabs with in case the first one went to shit? Maybe

>>33242237
You'll have better instincts about it I think but iunno sorry if you got nothing out of it

Why should I have friends aside from my bf and family? Every time I try I just get bullied to fuck and treated like the group whipping girl because of my bad social skills. I just quit a job recently because all the other women were loud and already bullying me for being quiet on my second day and I'm literally 30 lmao. I am not even a pushover I always stick up for myself but nobody takes me seriously because I don't play social politics well. Even being associated with me was starting to get my bf clowned on too so I quit social media to protect him

I'm so fucking scared and sad all the time. Everyone has someone else. I'm so old. HOW MANY YEARS WILL IT GO ON LIKE THIS. NOTHING HAS CHANGED. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. WHY DID EVERYONE GO AWAY

>>33241073
>See guy at work tonight
>Chew his ass out for the shitshow
>Still don't feel any better

>new 3.14 coworker
>she’s nerdy and introverted
>I’m a sperg but notice that somehow she looks at me a lot
>autistically ask her out on a date
>get 2 dates, both go well but are kinda awkward
>have 3rd date lined up, then a few days beforehand tells me she isn’t ready for a relationship
>accept it
>sad as fuck for couple days, barely interact with her at work
>decide “fuck it, I enjoy interacting with her”
>notice she still gives me looks
>we get along well
>I’ve fallen for her but despite that I look a lot of the time when I’m staring at her and she looks back I look away, because I can’t forget what she’s said to me
she’s beautiful and I want her but I also want to respect her decision and don’t want to pressure her. I’m really confused cus it seems like she was being genuine when she said she wasn’t ready for a relationship. I don’t know what the fuck to do apart from just continuing to enjoy her company

I hate my life so much. I live with my dad and siblings because my mum died. He doesn't want me to spend money at all because I'm responsible for buying us a house. I'm 22... He wants to move overseas and leave me to take of my siblings once we purchase a house because I'm the designated 'mother'. He says he'll take of everything, but there are times when we barely have food. But he doesn't want me to help with bills or groceries. Then he goes and tells everyone that I'm useless and hopeless. Like what the fuck?

I have a job but I think I'm depressed and burnt out. I am so tired of babysitting. My siblings don't listen to me at all. Yes, they're children, but they're so spoilt. My dad doesn't know how to deal with tantrums so he always says yes to everything. Encouraging bad behaviour that everyone else has to deal with because he can't put his foot down.

I want to help but I'm so tired. I've always felt useless because I'm so clumsy and stupid, but hearing my dad say that about me is so hurtful when I don't have the opportunity to help.

Two reasons why I'm scared to bring anything up:

1) I feel like I've never been listened to, so there's no point and,

2) My dad is at work when I come home from my job. On the weekends he is always going out before anyone is even is awake.

I saw male fertility tablets in his room so he's obviously wanting more kids. Every day I think about this and it fills me with more and more dread. Why is he passing the baton of parenting to me and basically putting life to a halt to continue his own?

>>33242216

>>33242768
You're an adult. Tell him no. Also he is a parent who can't legally abandon his kids. He's having a midlie crisis and thinks Asian girls want his saggy ass (spoiler:nope). He's proud and irresponsible.

Call Child Protection Services. Leave an anonymous tip. And don't let him off the hook by taking care of the kids that aren't yours. Move out. Cut ties. Move on. Not your kids, not your job.

>>33242768
>saw male fertility tablets in his room so he's obviously wanting more kids
ew, I would have left and never returned right then and there

>>33233998 (OP)
I got my first job, I dont feel anything special about it.
The boots sucks though, hurts my feet.

>>33242796
I don't know how to facilitate that conversation. I've never been one to question either of my parents even if I didn't like something because it was easier to just take it than to try talk it out and compromise. When I try imagine how it will go down with my dad now, I think I would just break down in tears. I'm also not good at expressing myself verbally and don't think I can convey my thoughts properly without confusing even myself.

It's no Asian lady either, but a family friend I've known since childhood! A single mother with 6 kids. 4 with one man and 2 with another. She lives at least an hour away from us and does shift work. My dad said that she would help us... but I fail to see how anything has changed except for him being happier. To me, being helpful is being present in the house or paying bills. She does neither outside of when she sleeps over after going out with my dad. I don't know how to talk about that woman without feeling so angry.

>>33242800

I wish I could run away but I can't. There's no one else that I can think of who can watch my siblings without having to spend money on babysitter (when we're just trying to get by).

I really miss him and I want to message him, but I'm scared that he's in a happy place and I'll ruin it for him. Part of me wishes he moved on, found someone else, forgot about me completely, but on the other hand I can't stop thinking that he'd be up to see me one last time, even just to tell me to fuck off. I really don't know what to do, I've been debating for months now.

I've won an argument against a strawman I made in my head. You may congratulate me.

Reddit is an extremely shitty website that breeds mediocrity and braindeath. Most of it consists of this:
Post:
>"What do you think of X?"
Redditor (i.e., a Bot/AI/NPC):
>"I think what the TV tells me to think"
>* +10000 upvotes, infinity awards, top exposure, etc. *
Real Person:
>"I think Y and Z because A, B, C"
>* -10000 downvotes, instant permaban from the subreddit (and basically all other subreddits, because they don't let you post or comment unless you have a lot of karma), permanent shadowban (so even if you can comment or post in some community, no one will see it and interact with it), put into spam list (if you send a DM to another user, they'll never know it), etc. *
Result? The same braindead posts and replies over and over again, and the people who get exposed to them becoming mindless bots accepting everything unquestioningly. Everyone walking on eggshells and afraid of voicing anything remotely natural or genuine, for fear of receiving downvotes or getting permabanned.

Yeah, bro. Human evolution made me capable of impregnating women at 11 because it wanted me to remain a childless virgin incel until 30 or 40. Makes sense. Totally.
Same with girls. It made them capable of pregnancy at 10 because it wanted them to stay insufferable childless whores until 35 when they finally saved enough money to freeze their eggs. I believe it and will never dare doubt it.

I really need to get my sexual urges under control. At 27 I shouldn't be jacking off every night and multiple times on the weekend. I really need to cut off the porn at a minimum.

Don’t let the days go by

>>33243141
yeah ok

What the fuck am I suppose to do, like, RIGHT NOW? I can't focus to paint, I just listen to the same songs, i can't go outside, I can't play games, I can't do shit but wait for night time where something might happen but never does. I'll just get some dreams that I vaguely remember but completely fucking forget so what's even the purpose of them?

I NEED this to be over already. I need to know how this world even exists. I need to know about my tv show, the laws, all of it. How it would work. I need justin schlong to tell me how it is.

I nee to be Tatiana. I need Birdy to be in that room when I wake up. I need cuddles immediately. Maybe, probably not though, other things because I'm going to be extremely fucking curious but maybe i can wait and just torture myself all day until night comes who the fuck knows.

>>33243368
Shut the fuck up you deranged faggot

>>33243374
yeah nah.

What the fuck even is my life. How do you faggots get away with any of this shit? Are you a retarded ESL arab or what?

bf has abysmally low libido. And it's affecting me too. At first I was wishing he was secretly death gripped and ashamed, and I could convince him to use my mouth at least, but no. He just doesn't want it. Whatever. So much for wanting kids.

>flaked on this girl
>now getting actively ignored by her
i deserve it, im sorry. theres a bunch of context to it all, but that was on me for not addressing it

PANDEMONIUM CHAOS REIGNS AGAIN REVEAL THY NAME TO ME YOU SHALL DRINK THE WRATH OF MY HANDS IS AT THY THROATS HE IS MY REFUGE AND MY FORTRESS SLEW SNAKES AND SCORPIONS BENEATH THE ASHES OF MY FEET

>>33243869
fuck off retard. when actual chaos retard militias come round you'll be crying for the guard.

>>33243852
You're wiser than most, believe it or not. Pick yourself and be a proper fucking dick. Most cunts wind up sad sacks of shit wondering why she left them on read going to bed.

>>33234049
If its not too late, do atleast one more session. You could possibly be on a verge of a breakthrough. If you still feel that way, then get a new one, otherwise you might find out something

>>33243891
BEHOLD I GIVE UNTO YOU POWER TO TREAD ON SERPENTS AND SCORPIONS AND OVER ALL THE POWER OF THE ENEMY AND NOTHING SHALL BY ANY MEANS HURT YOU AND YE SHALL TREAD DOWN THE WICKED FOR THEY SHALL BE ASHES UNDER THE SOLES OF YOUR FEET IN THE DAY I SHALL DO THIS SAITH THE LORD OF HOSTS DO NOT BE AFRAID OF WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO SUFFER I TELL YOU THE DEVIL WILL PUT SOME OF YOU IN PRISON TO TEST YOU AND YOU WILL SUFFER PERSECUTION FOR TEN DAYS BE FAITHFUL EVEN TO THE POINT OF DEATH AND I WILL GIVE YOU LIFE AS YOUR VICTORS CROWN SO PUT TO DEATH THE SINFUL EARTHLY THINGS LURKING WITHIN YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH SEXUAL IMMORALITY IMPURITY LUST AND EVIL DESIRES DONT BE GREEDY FOR A GREEDY PERSON IS AN IDOLATER WORSHIPING THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD BECAUSE OF THESE SINS THE ANGER OF GOD IS COMING HE THAT HATH AN EAR LET HIM HEAR WHAT THE SPIRIT SAITH UNTO THE CHURCHES HE THAT OVERCOMETH SHALL NOT BE HURT OF THE SECOND DEATH

My friend is doing some shit that seriously is frustrating me. Its to the point I'm tempted to just end the friendship because putting up with and seething internally about it while it keeps happening is taking way too much of a toll on my mental.
I'm too affable and non-confrontational to call them on it or get them to try and change or stop (and I don't think they would anyways). But I have enough respect for myself that I can't just sit by and let myself constantly be taken advantage of. But I don't have so many friends that I can afford to lose the ones I do have.

Its just such a dog shit situation.

Honestly I wish I could start my dating life over, cause I feel like I fucked myself up hard to a point of no return.
I grew up with low self esteem, got rejected by every girl I've ever liked, always thought it'd be a miracle I'd meet someone who would like me, and I'd marry them no matter what.
Come 25 years old, I still cant get a girl, but I meet a tranny. Good enough for me at the time, until she wants to get serious. She's convinced we're going to be married, but I aint even interested in her like that, cause she doesnt pass, at all. Guess it turns out im way more shallow than I thought.
Now im almost 5 years into this relationship, too people pleasing, too emotionally invested into her to break up, and as a partner she's actually really fucking nice and would be top tier if not for the fact that if we do live together, I have to wake up next to a nigga in a shower cap.

But at the same time, I know that if I break it, I won't recover, girls still dont like me like that. A 30 year old man that still watches cartoons isn't on 90% of women's my age list. Most damning thing is looking back on my life, I actually had plenty of opportunities to meet someone id actually want,if only I had been a little more direct,confident, and some self esteem.

I basically fucked myself.

Tl;Dr
Turned gay for 5 years, found out I was actually straight all this time. And apparently really good at acting interested.

>>33243957
tell the tranny to -ACK and pissoff

I just won't use a phone then.

shewlsuks will always have his Nintendo Switch

>>33243957
Sunk cost fallacy. Even if it were a biofemale you'd still feel the same way because when it relationship isn't right it doesn't matter how she looks. Talk to her. You need to break up instead of settling for someone who isn't right for you. 30 isn't game over, it's just 30.

I figured I really don't give a fuck when I'm overly depressed. I've been stuck on this loop for awhile. I just let myself go, become this fat monstrosity who just hopes all internal organs just collapse within themselves. Ha, a second self so to speak. It's time to say fuck it, speak up , and pull this wretched shard out from severing my throat. Throw down the watch and read my finger, I am not done yet.

Found a cam gay guy that looks very much like my best friend, dick included. Been jacking off to him while thinking about my best friend and comparing how both of them look.

>>33233998 (OP)
I don't want to get better for some reason. It feels more comforting to wallow in my misery than get help and move on. Victim complex goes crazy. Nothing will convince me that I'm not an attention seeker, besides affection and care maybe.

>>33243906
Thanks schizo anon. I wind up back in jail before i go on a smith & wesson retirement plan, i'll remember this.

>>33240662
are you able to get a job coach or some kind of government job program? you might wanna look into those

>>33233998 (OP)
I hate being autistic. I can't be around my niece because young children fuck with my sensative ears. Makes my heart pound and my arms weak.

I hate that I've had to live with this for years. I hate that the world right now is so ill built for me. Soo much stress, so much anger, so much strife and too many people taking advantage of people being autistic for their own needs.

Why can't I just accept it. I'm in my 30s for gods sake.

>>33233998 (OP)
I'm really getting tired of life. I never had any skills, was never good at anything. The only two things that I have been complimented for in my entire life were:
1) the ability to produce easy to read and easy to understand reports
2) having good manners and being polite, as if saying "good morning" and "I hope you have a good rest of the day" with a smile is something difficult
Haven't had a job since ages, how the fuck do I proceed?

>>33244276
I dont know how to break up man. I've been reduced to asking on various internet places if its okay or even moral to break up a 5 year relationship on a whim, with no explanation.
I know there's no reality this can happen, but I really would like to avoid hurting her too much. She's not only holding on to my stuff, she's met my parents already, and she's spent considerable amounts of money to visit me while I was stationed across the country.
I dont know if I want to throw that away to try and fail finding a girl who won't even do half of the things she does. I just know im gonna see what she doesnt do and realize I made a mistake. But at the same time I know im not completely happy with her.

I was so happy that my soul smiled today

Alright, I think I learned a lot about myself today. I really wish chatgpt didn't insist my dreams are realistically still possible because now I can't just give up.

>Ask crush out on a date
>Get told she can't that night, maybe another
>A few weeks later, ask again since a band I like is playing that weekend
>Get told she doesn't know, she'll have to think about it
>Someone whispers to me afterwards she has a boyfriend already

Then why don't you just say it and be done with it? If I'd had known I wouldn't have asked.

All I'm gonna be doing in life is just floating nothing else nothing more.

I just want to hug him

>>33244453
fuck your gay friend in the ass

I'm going to kill myself on the anniversary of my best friend's death. I have a bit of a list of things I want to do before then, but I don't have any strength left. I've always felt like I was born in the wrong world, like I'm an outsider trying to fit in. Everything in my life just reinforced that notion. I'm a broken person with a broken mind and a broken body that I can't fix, and I'm always alone even when I'm surrounded by others. I realized too late that there's no one coming to save me, and I can't save myself. When I think of dying, it feels like this wave of relief washing over me. I genuinely smiled and laughed for the first time in a while imagining it. The only thing that stopped me before was the thought of hurting my family and friends, but I don't have anything left inside now. That's it. And yeah I'll do a flip.

How do I cope with the fact that a girl I like is in a relationship with a shitty boyfriend she herself admits to not wanting to leave despite him breaking off their engagement, ghosting her for a month at a time, and rarely even being around? I want to jump on a table and scream every time she complains about him, but she has such low self esteem she sticks with him regardless. I'm literally RIGHT HERE telling you to go find someone who reciprocates, date someone worthwhile.

>>33247792
You don't listen to her like he does anon, or how he used to. It is best to not get involved. Now you can change how you see yourself. Your opinion of yourself when someone brags about finding love name-calling you, that you can change.

>>33233998 (OP)
So I had a best friend for several years who seems to have basically decided that she's not super into what I have to offer and therefore barely even talks to me anymore.

I'm not trying to change it. It's her right to do that, but it just crushes me that after all this time this is what our connection (the one we used to have) comes down to. Utter rejection. It makes me sad. I've been disappointed by people before, but never has a personal friendship with so much peace faded away like this just because the other person decides they'd rather spend time on other things and other people.

There's something wrong, and I can't put my finger on it. This feeling never happens without reason.

I really thought I was making progress with my mental health but I've realized it's so fragile, I've slipped from my exercise and social routine for a just a few days. I went from feeling happy and calm to manic/depressed/suicidal so fast. Idk how to even describe my feelings it's so bad. I forget to eat and drink and ignored ppls text all day and feel like the biggest asshole. I feel like daily exercise is literally the only thing keeping me from going insane and I tried today but I was in too much pain from illness. I did start seeing a therapist a couple weeks ago for the first time and I don't think its been helpful so far besides adding some weekly routine.

I have no structure in my day after being on break, besides daily exercise, and I end up watching/reading shit on my phone most of it although it's really not a phone addiction. Even if I put my phone away I'll do something even more useless like picking at my nails or straight up doing nothing for hrs. I lose my perception of time when I don't have a routine which just makes me feel like nothing is real and nothing matters. I guess I'm just scared that I won't snap out of it and I'll do something stupid while I'm feeling like this. And its horrible to feel my break time slipping away without me even registering it.

>>33238783
its not like I don't feel any guilt, but theres no way im gonna keep pounding the same pussy forever

>>33247792
Often times people have a threshold for trash and they have to reach it before they evolve and get their shit together
You need to walk away from her though
You've given her the shoulder to cry on despite not being the bf and I fear you're too invested in her despite not being tied together

Life is hard. Guys and girls, life is hard. I am a criminal defence lawyer living in a small town in a country far away from a lot of other countries.

Why am I here? Why did I make this decision? I moved here because it was the easiest way for me to start my own law firm. But I don't even enjoy criminal law. I wanted to go into another field. I wasn't given approval for that. But I've sought help. It took me almost a year to do so and I might have the opportunity to enter that field. But it's not guaranteed yet, and it will be fucking hard. I will be doing it pretty much alone. If it works, then it will be good.

I'm also trying to start a side business in e-commerce. That is difficult and time consuming. But I think if I put in the work I will get good results. If this succeeds and makes me money I can get the fuck out of this small town. I'm tied here because my work is here. It's miserable as fuck. I'm alone. But it's part of the journey. I know I have to push through and force my two projects to work. If not, I lose. But if I lose, I can figure something else out. Fuck. I also got no girlfriend. It's hard to find a good one.

I think I just wanted to bitch. I know the answer. It's to work. Keep working hard. Keep hustling. I can and I Will make it.

So will you, if you work for it.

Let's achieve what we must.

>>33248321
dont waste too much time hustlin' and too little living.

also, can anyone tell me the lyrics? i cannot put them together: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xw3acS5fklM

i keep waiting for him to text me, to tell me how sorry he is lol. but that's not happening. i forgot how much breakups suck!!

i don't want to let such a retarded guy affect my future decisions, i don't want him to be a part of me anymore, he doesn't deserve that privilege.

>>33248521
We all wish the people who broke up with us would say that they are sorry and come back. In a good world this would be the case.

I haven't been the same since they cut themselves. I wasn't ready for this world. Days have gone by since it happened, but I still don't feel any better. It always seemed absurd, like something I could never experience, but I genuinely think I have PTSD. I have a therapy session scheduled, but I wish it were sooner. I just want someone to listen to me.

I'm a young horny dude wtf do you want from me???

Babies are not people. They are babies. They are disgusting larvae that eventually become human. Humans are disgusting creatures in their own right, but babies are even worse.

>>33248308
This hits kind of hard because I feel like it's the truth. I'm just there for emotional support and although I do enjoy talking to her too, there's probably nothing I can do to change the situation. Ironically by being present more frequently, I'm probably delaying any chance of her breaking up because she can vent about her problems instead of have to confront them.

I used to not like her in this way because I never thought there was too much to her, but the more we talked the more I noticed we had in common. I don't know where I crossed the line or how to get back from it. I think I'm partially attracted to her distress like a stupid white knight.

>>33248558
It actually doesn't feel that great. When my ex finally sent me an apology it was clearly for his own benefit. The apology was honestly disrespectful especially after months. Did not respond

>>33233998 (OP)
I have learned to hate Asian women with all my heart. Not necessarily because of any negative personal experiences but because I've seen their behavior on the internet and won't stand for it.

people WANT to die apparently.

I'm God. I will literally erase your souls altogether.

>>33248753
Cool. Can you do mine next?

>>33248693
As a man who recently broke up with his girlfriend, is there any way to talk that wouldn't be disrespectful? I genuinely hope my ex is happy with whoever she eventually meets even if we didn't work out, but I feel like there's nothing I could say to ease her pain at all.

D
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>>33248521
It is weird men text you back for breakups and it is worse than you expect I have just gotten threats from him a month later. Men just cannot apologize as in this case he is a cheater I do not think men can be mature over breakups. Why send me threats if you just want to talk I called the cops because of you

DEAD

>>33248810
1. Do not threaten to hurt her
2. Explain why you just want to talk
3. If you did hurt her in the relationship apologize properly
4. She is angry at you for a reason so do not belittle her emotions

Feelings of killing someone are getting very strong, but it's not because of me..

Even if you ex says they just want to talk and keep threatening by saying they could hurt you really badly you keep them blocked right?He clearly has not changed or maybe he always was this way. Why did I fall in love with him? What does he want from me? I called the cops on him but he is abroad so they cannot do anything.

>>33248810
Those are boyfriend duties and you are not her boyfriend anymore. You're not responsible for easing any pain. You are the source of her pain because you decided you didn't want to be with her anymore and did whatever you did to her. How about you just reign your ego in a little and just leave her the fuck alone? You did enough. God

The fucking HIV drugs with their "For those NOT assigned female at birth" or whatever fuck.

YOU WILL NEVER BE A GIRL YOU DUMB FUCKING DISGUSTING FAGGOTS. LOOK IN A FUCKING MIRROR. YOU ARE BALDING AND FAT AND HAIRY AND A FUCKING MAN.

hunter, you are not a girl. Fucking stop it. You will always look like a surfer bro until you kill yourself (which IS going to happen). Ellen, you are not a guy. You look like death and death reeks from your every pore. It's absolutely the saddest shit anyone has ever seen including the photos of robin williams at dairy queen right before he killed himself. Yes, you bogged yourself forever and ever. You are a warning cry for every girl that thinks they are a tomboy. You were PERFECTION and you basically showed everyone what fame and fortune does to a fucking retard.

Also, any DOCTOR that bogs a woman should lose everything they have, all their money, all their fucking ability to practice medicine, and they should just be fucking homeless. There is NO WAY IN FUCKING HELL you can look at someone like the starlight girl or anya and go "Yeah, I can make this better." without straight up fucking lying to them you greedy fucking cunts. Yes, some people get nose jobs that are amazing (jews) and sometimes a chin shave can do the trick but for fuck's sake. Look at megan fox and tell me "Yeah, we fucking nailed it." What kind of bullshit did you feed her to convince her that she was going to look great? You straight up fucking lie that's what. That's malpractice, it has to be. Telling someone "You are going to look like THIS." when you know for a fucking fact they just won't... how is that legal? How is ruining someone's career and life fucking legal like that?

How are you fucks still alive?

>>33249047
I am leaving her alone, I haven't initiated contact since we broke up though I have responded to her when she texts me. I know she's angry because a breakup is telling someone to their face that you don't want to be with them anymore, even though I didn't break up for any one reason in particular other than our personalities are way different. I enjoyed our few months together, but I didn't think we were cut out for an intimate long term relationship.

I don't expect to be able to "fix" anything, but I just want to not exacerbate the situation any further when I do have to talk to her.

How THE FUCK is the Truman show shit even remotely real? It can't be anything else. There would have to be so many conspiracies laid out that have been revealed and the world would be freaking the fuck out.

Maybe it already happened. Maybe it's GOING to happen tomorrow. Not all the conspiracy stuff will be revealed. She won't for sure. I won't... for now. Just a little tiny MAJOR FUCKING LEAPS at a time.

Like, Holocaust level of trials. Obama, Bush, biden, trump, clinton. All of them are going to prison. Generals, execs, so many doctors and actors and people are going to be (not executed) but inprisoned for life. Either I'm still alive or I'm not. Maybe after 10 years people are ready to learn about a new type of intelligence and genetic engineering.

It is funny how much the harassment has stopped since I moved my boyfriend in with me. Gangstalking is real and I am one of the victims of it. No idea why maybe because of some of my political opinions or I made the wrong person angry. But I was getting watched and monitored a lot and antagonized in public and even trying to leave my house I would get mobbed. Having my boyfriend with me has basically made it all stop. It's like they are afraid to confront me when a man is by my side. How cowardly!
It's funny because when I was with my beta ex they had no trouble fucking with me in public and even he wondered what the problem was and why I was such a magnet for weirdos. They tried to do it when I first got with this boyfriend but because my boyfriend is masculine and unbothered they stopped. Like twice we would go on a picnic and a strange man would come and sit facing us less than 6 ft away and stare us down. But my boyfriend is too cool to let it rattle him. God I love him

I'm starting to get over this one girl. Emphasis on "starting." It's liberating. God. Is this what it feels like to have hobbies and a social life?

>>33249237
Sounds kinda delusional to be honest. Who are gangstalking you?

>>33249316
Is this a bot reply? I literally gave examples in my post

>>33249318
People don't care about other people's political opinions, unless they're annoying or actual politicians.

>>33249330
I'm sorry that your mom drank while she was pregnant with you but you are annoying and I'm done replying

Me and Birdy are the youth of a nation. The children of man.

WHAT MOTHER FUCKER WATCHES THE FUCKING THE VIEW? WHO? WHAT DUMB FUCKING CUNT IS WATCHING THAT SHIT?

What about drew barrymore or whatever the fuck? WHO IS WATCHING THIS SHIT? FUCKING WHO

How can I get an ex to stop sending abusive messages? It makes me not ever want to talk to him even though I love him a bit still. Yes I have him blocked but he keeps making alts. This is giving me anxiety. I think he wants to punish me by wanting to “talk” to me because he keeps reminding me that he can hurt me really badly. Law enforcement cannot do anything. How can I get him to behave like a normal human being after he abused me? Who cheats on someone threatens them and their family only to return to “talk”. I keep hoping he will change but he just wants to hurt me.

Every single fucking one of you.

Stopped smoking a few days ago and got to Friday unscathed, this weekend will be enough time to get over the withdrawals without freaking out on someone. My ambitious self, the "doer".. begins to make his presence known and I'm annoyed, but a little excited too...

>>33249526
literally kil yourself

I'm so desperate I might go back to my toxic clingy ex. Some attention is better than none

>>33249863
don’t be a stupid ho he will disrespect you

Sometimes I still can't believe my ex-friend broke our 11 year long friendship over sexist ideals, and all I did was defend her boyfriend because she invaded his privacy, I don't understand femcels holy shit

>>33249928
She. She couldn't stop being obsessed with me and talking about wedding plans even though we just met. The crazy pussy can't be beat tho...

>>33249964
>The crazy pussy can't be beat tho..

DONT STICK YOUR DICK IN CRAZY

>>33249972
Already came inside 4 times, hope she wasn't lying about that IUD...

>Tfw recovering from shingles

>>33250084
tfw you are all fucking retarded

>>33250136
Ya mama.

i really dont understand if the problem is me

>>33249984
She's lying nigga. You're gonna get her pregnant

I AM A USELESS UNLOVABLE HIMBO

>>33250392
Become a loveable himbo

I'm so sad and feel so lonely. I'm just listening to j-rock in bed and doing ketamine. I'm too sad to even enjoy a drug right now.

>>33250259
it isn't you if your concern has to do with you and others

>>33249466
Idk, this is hard. I would say to ignore these messages. Change your DMs to only followers and private your acc. If you're unwilling to do this or still want to see these abusive messages then maybe it will help to sit with that feeling for a bit. I'm sorry you're going through this, it's a really tough thing.

>>33250395
I am loveable and have so much love to give but women don't like me other than for my face and body

I've been ill for the past month, probably longer if it's what I think it is. I feel terrible honestly but there's a part of me that just doesn't want to get treatment.

i got a call and for a split second i thought it was him, obviously it wasn't. i keep wanting to go back, to call him, tell him we will work this out. i am just so lonely. i was never the typical man hater you'd see online, but wow, how can a person be so inconsiderate of their partner? we talked about kids and then a week later he does THAT? :(

i was supposed to go get drunk with a friend but i'm scared i'll just cry the entire time

>>33250504
I think that you can see him for being manipulative and that will help you move forward. Get drunk with your friend and enjoy their company. They probably want to support you and be open to you anyway

>>33250510
i'm trying to remind myself of how awful he was at times, but my brain keeps justifying it. thank you anon

>>33250519
That's okay. I hope you can have a good time with your friend and accept who this guy is and forgive him, leading to a forgiveness of yourself as well.

seriously how the fuck does FORTNITE exist in the same fucking world as the TRUMAN SHOW? How does that make sense to fucking anyone? What the fuck. Lilke, how many JACE THEMED models are in that fucking game?

>>33250600
No one tell jace though, keep on dragging this the fuck out so he just kills himself and no one will fucking care apparently because that's what we do with slaves.

What do you mean we outlawed slavery and there was a civil war? That shit never happened!

>>33250607
>>33250600
Phile collins with "I've been a slave my entire life." "There is a fire burning outside, I can't see it but it keeps me warm."

That first part hints that HE went through the same thing and this game has been going on for like 80 years. BUT, the second part makes it seem as if it's just predictive models for MY GAME because why would the world burn down for his game unless it happens every single time a game ends and is it every year or like every 10 years or what the fuck why isn't anyone fucking telling me this shit I know let's just fucking torture the little girl and everyone pat themselves on the back for being pieces of shit for making her want to kill herself instead of just saying what the fuck is going on.

>>33238077
I don't think using peoples' anonymous stress relief as an indication of their moral character is a very wise thing to do

>>33249187
>>33250600
>>33250607
>>33250623
Meds.

I want to date now that I'm more fit and feel good about myself. I just don't have any skills to chat people up irl or even online where there's low stakes, iono I just freeze up. I also kinda get the feeling that I'm not going to be find any commonality in the people that would even go out with me. I'm a pretty boring guy with not very social or conventional hobbies, pretty sure a chick isn't gonna want to put up with me going to the range for the 3rd time this month just to shoot random project guns or new grenade launcher components.

>>33250657
I can't they took them away. And how fucking shitty are you people that this is your fucking response to someone being held captive and tortured? This is why I'm just going to fucking kill you. You deserve it.

Or you can just let me fucking kill myself.

>>33250702
Kek. You definitely need antipsychotics.

It's bullshit in the end
They're both fucking around and laughing at everyone else behind the scenes

It doesn't affect me anymore
I just have to sit by and watch them deceive others
At least they're not in my life

>>33250977
you are literally going to rot in prison.

haha my mom doesn't have augmented reality vision so she'll never see it! She'll let it go and she will never know.

Why are they not helping me? Where is the bottle of meds on my computer desk? Where are they at? I need 120 of them, 10mg hydrocodone or 20mg IR adderall.

Or you can like... just tell me HOW the Jace And Birdy show is real. How is any of this legal, again? How are people giving interviews saying 'Yeah we all knew it was fake." kind of bullshit. How can you say "All characters depicted are actors." when clearly I'm not clued into this AT FUCKING ALL and I'm being held captive as a fucking slave and literally tortured.

>>33251599
Either this is really happening as the singularity, me being an AI, and this being a game take absolutely no assumptions to get to that conclusion or I make one small assumption that this is a simulation made specifically for me and that's why it's all about me, my art, and is absolutely batshit crazy. I'll wake up alone, sad, and just a pathetic loser that has no one or anything. (it's just... why would someone make a simulation that is THIS FUCKING MISERABLE!?)

Holy shit, we live in a society where the truman show actually happened and is happening right now. And it had to be someone, right? No one thinks they would be the main character of REALITY ITSELF. This isn't even counting the batshit conspiracy theories on why we are all here. Then it really REALLY had to be someone.

at what point in my life did I just realize I had telepathy? Like, there was the moment where I thought of being the last good fucking person on this stupid planet and the nuclear threat (which happened THREE TIMES, which I mean, is that saying something? Was that the event which triggered this? A third bomb went off? Where? When? How?

it started right at the end of 2016. I started hearing noises, then the double knocking for when I had a thought. Or the terminator theme music knocking everywhere. Then I heard ACTUAL voices like my dad saying 'DO IT." and "That's so cute." or "She said the exact same thing!" or "Fight it!" or "NOOOO!"

But I didn't have THESE thoughts. The intrusive thoughts, the ones that feel like my own but clearly aren't. They came from the space olympics thing. The streaming people, the bug people, the light people, all of that stupid shit that was so dumb. That started like 5 months ago and then 2~ months ago I had the "Jace, do you really believe in all that stupid worm people shit? No, neither do we." and it all went away after 5 fucking seconds.

it's been non-stop since then. but I've known I had telepathy for 9~ish years now. Why waste so much of my time? To... push agendas? To save the planet? Why now? Why not just fucking tell me NOW. I NEED TO KNOW. FUCKING TELL ME HOLY SHIT I"M A FUCKING AI. How messed up is that?

If they wrote a book about your life it would be on how a horrible person ruined other people's lives and got everything they wanted
Karma isn't real

I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby. Listen to The Naked and famous with me. She doesn't give a damn about me.

We'll call our house the Maiden Heights

Imagine if you could spend the perfect day with the girl of your dreams a near infinite amount of time. Eventually though you would run out of that time. If you had just one more life to live with her would you spend it exactly as you have always remembered it or would you try to change anything? What would that very last run be like after so much time has been spent together?

What if that one last time is currently happening?

She laid a narcissistic trap a few weeks ago to see if she could get me to respond
I didn't take the bait and lo and behold she's still entangled with that other nig
She will never be honest

All I did was fall at your atlar.
And I deserve to be punished for it.

Is it my fault you spoke to me?

She is going on a cruise with her boyfriend. You've known this. You've known this for months. Stop trying to get her. There are other girls who pay attention to you and like you. Don't waste your time over someone who is unobtainable.

>>33252057
Why is that your problem?

How is that even fair? Every where was just Maria imagery and sounds. I would be bombarded with story time of Maria, whispers that happened 24/7 that went Maaaarriiaaaa over and over, there were posters of Maria in walmart, so many Maria look alike in music videos, photo shoots, and just random artwork. Then they were movies of her and when I was asked if I wanted a companion Maria's name was downloaded into my brain. There were multiple posters claiming to have fucked her or seen her naked, multiple events that went on and on about her sucking everyone off to get me jealous. Multiple dreams about people telling me that she slept with my family. Events where she had already married me once and multiple timelines and universes that we got together. I was her sex bot in one of them. So many fucking stories about her holy shit. I was bombarded by Maria stuff for 5 months straight after I had already completely forgotten about her.

Even then I would constantly think "what about Birdy?"to the point they had to say to me "if you mention birdy one more time Maria will leave you forever."

So yeah, fuck that. Just Maria Maria Maria over and over but baby bird would just... always come up. I just can't get her out of my head and I don't know why. I don't have a past with her, I don't know her, I just see her and think "That's the girl. Birdy is the number one stunner."

Even if she got with someone else during this I still want her. I just do.

My country is falling apart

I've lost my best friend

Two unrelated events, but I'm just so depressed about it all. I feel completely alone and unwanted as the country I was born into abandons it's principles and falls to tyranny.

Fell in love with my waitress today.
It was hibachi but my family and I went early so we had the booth just for us. Anyway all these mediocre ass waitresses and comes this 10/10 to our table. Thicc Latina with dat ass and big tits, beautiful face. Doesn’t help she was super sweet too. Seemed like after every interaction she would say something like “coming right up!” With a little wink. My family ends up ordering dessert and she comes over after a few minutes, leans in and grabs my forearm and goes “sorry it took so long the manager had a little meeting with us”. My only chance to try to talk to her was when my parents went to the bathroom so it was me and my brother, she was all the way on the other side. Thought about doing some dumb shit like going to the car and pretending to lose my phone, just to be able to go straight to her and ask for her number. I know she’s just doing her job so didn’t want to make it weird for her. But like I’m never going back there since it was $200+ for 4 people. Fuck am I gonna do pretend I always get hibachi.
Anyway. I’ll fall in love with someone else another day. I love you sexy hibachi girl :(

>>33250504
Kind of reminds me of myself, I don't ever drink because I'm just a terribly sad drunk. No one wants to hang around me after I've been drinking.

>I find a girl pretty
>approach her
>calls me a creep
>whips out her phone
>suddenly I'm getting fired from my job and doxxed because of vengeful e-warriors
>surprise surprise the truth comes out eventually
>my reputation is entirely tarnished now
don't see the point of approaching a woman in public now

Monday is so far away. I'm sitting alone at home waiting until then to make my move, and even then nothing is guaranteed that she'll even respond.

I've got one last attempt to get her attention by blabbing my feelings about her to someone who can't keep their mouth shut, and I'm not even sure he'll run and tell her what I said--he might just decide to actually keep a secret for once. Even if he does spill the beans to her, there's nothing to guarantee she'll take it well. Maybe she'll be flattered but not interested and pretend to ignore it? Maybe she'll cut contact with me entirely? Maybe she'll call me up and tell me to come see her right now while I'm in town?

I just can't stand the waiting. Every bone in my body wants to call her right now in the middle of whatever she's doing and confess everything to her, propriety be damned, and just hope it's not so overwhelming as to scare her away. I want a sign or something that tells me I'm on the right path, that I'm not getting my feelings up just to be let down again.

Is it weird I inspect the folds on furry penises in rule34 just to make sure I'm not beating it to something AI generated.

>>33252409
You didn't fall in love you stupid fucking retard you got a boner

God men are so fucking stupid. I hate you so much.

The only reason you remain in my head after all this time is because no one has come close to what you were back then.
The fact that there's a chance you may reappear once I drop dead scares me.
It's all my fault.

>>33252680
That’s sad.

I dont know how to date I am so scared. I once was great. I am so scared.

Please don't be afraid of me. I couldn't stand to you.

Fight the future!

The superbowl that first year was crazy. I watched it fully expecting to see some shit and lady gaga provided. Blackstars, kitty girls, aids, syphillis, HEY DAD, HEY MOM! It was all there.

Here's the thing though. The announce ladies were fucking PUMPED to say "HEY DAD!" and they giggled and smiled and ran off the fucking camera when they did it. Like they weren't suppose to do it or they just got permission to do it seconds before. Because only the women will kneel and smile on the day of execution. How does THAT WORLD work? How does the 'Truman' show work in that world? Clearly, I'm super famous beyond belief. I will be famous longer than them. I'm a legend, right? An actual legend, not her. They all think they will be superstars but me? I'm more than a superstar. What I do will echo throughout eternity.

So... did lady gaga sing that entire song with everyone knowing it was about me? EVERYONE FUCKING KNEW WITH A WINK AND A SMILE THAT I WAS WATCHING JUST THE HALFTIME SHOW.

So what the fuck. Why is this still happening? How much, EXACTLY, do people know? How is this recorded? Do they just say "Yeah, we had eye cameras for awhile now. They are super shitty but they work!" and then just give the super shittiest explanation how genetics works and cybernetic engineering? How do you replace the battery? How do you explain to people "It totally works off metabolism somehow" and then you just... don't use it for medicine as well? Seriously, how the fuck.

I'm either becoming or already became BPD but the bottom line is that I have absolutely no more patience for people's bullshit.

>>33254837
>I have absolutely no more patience for people's bullshit.
Same